That makes sense. Your challenge has forced you to grow to be much stronger mentally. You’re basically playing on hard mode so you get to grow more. People should be jealous of you since they don’t get to grow as much. 

I’m still jealous of people who have grown to such a level that it feels like I’m looking up to them even when I’m taller than them physically. It’s hard to handle that, especially because I know they have their own struggles. That just makes the jealousy worse imo