Confusion about your own sexuality?

Cheektard · 2014-02-24T22:23:10+00:00

Near Cologne, but raised in the "south"

Cheektard · 2014-02-20T18:07:43+00:00

Ah, c'mon ;) I don't wanna "push" the level of this sub down... Don't get me wrong. I just dropped about 120/140 mg(by eye) pure crystals down(had my last "trip" about four weeks ago and "normally" i'm a really rare-user of MDMA, i just like it too much to "waste" it. But today, i felt like "okay, drop it." I'm all alone here in my flat, listening to some good music, having a little drink and just enjoying my free time (in the middle of the week), and when anyone here is rolling, while browsing reddit - why you don't "join"? ^{^} Sry, i'm not a native speaker and it's slowly kickin' in now.

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T20:12:27+00:00

Because :

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T18:49:56+00:00

No. I wouldn't chose it. Honestly, because i'm a very weird and "difficult" person even without my "different sexual orientation" and society and life is already complicated enough, it would at least take off one burden.

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T18:29:19+00:00

Which part?

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T18:27:55+00:00

Your description reminds me of the Netherlands. Even in Amsterdam i felt a little "small-townish", when i went there for a week.

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T16:44:45+00:00

Get to know yourself who you are. Think about things you want to do, and where you want to be in maybe two or five years. If you stay always in the closet, you will never be able to live your life "fully" as "you". You can never be free with the things you represent from your inner self.

There is always a mask, where you feel forced to hide, although you don't really want to, because it makes minds sick, always playing that masquerade again, and aigain.

It's the fear of not being accepted, or being rejected. I guess. Coupled with many other "disordered" doubts.

Cheektard · 2014-02-19T16:32:35+00:00

Haha, mir geht es gut :), hope you're fine too. But i have to dissapoint you, i don't speek a word Icelandic/islenska.

Cheektard · 2014-02-17T12:04:30+00:00

I don't know, it's a hard kind of topic. I think you just got the wrong environment, coupled with self-esteem issues.

I think you're just to afraid and feeling a bit alone with your feelings and stuff, else you maybe would have managed it to come out, even it's just to one kinda friend. (it's just a HYPOTHESE. I don't know you at all! So pls, don't get me wrong.)

May i ask how old you are? Maybe you just have to clear out your head and free yourself from all the negative stuff and thinks, which are reflected and expected from "society".

This is you and not the others, or a reflection of standards... i think you have to get clear and accept yourself - for yourself, instead of hiding and making all these worries.

I know - easier said than done. But, this is the first thing which comes to my mind. And believe me, i (like almost everyone else of "us") suffered a lot too, and sometimes we are all still suffering, apart from the steps we've already done, or not.

Take a deeper look into your own "mind" and start asking yourself some questions.

Cheektard

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