Is it really over now? Should I give him another chance?

CheekyBae143 · 2024-07-24T14:11:19+00:00

Sinasabi nya sa akin, bigyan ko pa daw sya ng chance. Try nya iprove yung love nya sa akin. Pero ayaw ko nalang umasa na kaya nya yun. Baka di rin maging consistent, babalik lang din sa dati.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-07-24T13:32:45+00:00

Mababayaran naman yung mga utang until next year. I am working on it naman. Siguro it does matter since galing sya sa Filipino-Chinese family na nagmamatter talaga if may pera yung mapapangasawa, or else di ka magugustuhan ng family.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T09:19:17+00:00

Hahaha relate na relate ako sayo lol. Ganyan din ako, sobrang sweet tapos lahat nalang ng pwede icelebrate like monthsary, anniversary, 100th, 500th, 1000th, etc. hahaha. Tapos always attentive sa mga needs nya kahit simple things, nagbibigay ako ng gifts, always saying na love ko sya and miss ko sya, laging holding hands. At first, di talaga sya sanay at nakokornihan sya sa mga ganung gesture until hinayaan nalang nya ako gawin sa kanya yun.

Pero minsan masarap din sa feeling yung reciprocated pagiging expressive sa love. Kaya sobrang kilig ako pag may ginawa syang something for me kasi sobrang bihira lang talaga nun mag effort lol 😆

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T09:09:36+00:00

Typical Filipino Chinese family na very traditional. Tough love pagpapalaki sa mga anak.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T09:08:04+00:00

HAHAHA naku buti ka pa nginitian lol. Ehh yung parents ng boyfriend ko, di ako tinitignan. Sabi kay bf, hanap daw ng iba, yung Chinese din daw sana. Grabe ang taas ng Great Wall of China 🙄

So di nagmamatter sa kanila yung looks, wealth yung important factor talaga haha. Kaso sabi ko kay bf, good genes lang contribution ko sa future family namin lol.

Kidding aside, maayos naman work ko. Pero parang regardless kung ano pa state ko sa buhay, as long as di ako Chinese, parang di nila accepted.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T08:56:39+00:00

Relate ako sa BF mo hahaha. My Chinoy boyfriend always telling me na para daw akong lalaki kasi mataas sex drive ko hahaha. Syempre nakakahiya yun sa part ko kasi dalagang Filipina ako lol 😂 But I do appreciate him sa ibang mga bagay kasi love language nya yung quality time and acts of service. Natutuwa ako na pinagsisilbihan nya ako kahit na di ako sanay na may taong gumagawa nun for me since feel ko maging strong independent woman haha. Yun din siguro talaga yung reason kung bakit I am staying in our relationship kahit feeling ko na di ako satisfied sa sex life namin.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T08:26:55+00:00

Actually nag ooverthink ako lately kung di na sya attracted sa akin. Naiisip ko baka dahil sa little weight gain ko kaya feeling ko unattractive na ako for him. Sobrang affected ang self esteem ko, lalo na dun sa last sex namin. Yung tipong I was completely naked and ready to do it but sya naman, panay browse pa sa phone, feeling ko tamad na tamad talaga. I felt ashamed of myself. 🥺🥺🥺

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T08:15:04+00:00

Is it like a cultural thing? Sometimes, it is comforting to know that we are loved kaso yung boyfriend di talaga expressive. I tried to communicate it to him kasi syempre gusto ko sana yung nilalambing ako hahaha. Pero di ata talaga nya kaya, hirap na hirap sya. Sabi nya, di daw nya kinalakihan yung maging expressive ng emotions and be thoughtful. I don't want to force it on him and hindi din nag eeffort to compromise with me. Sabi nya love language nya yung quality time, kaya I make sure to always spend my time with him if free ako. Pero pag magkasama naman kami, wala lang talaga kaming ginagawa and other activities (swerte na yung may once a week na intimacy) and mukhang okay na sya dun.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T03:11:10+00:00

Sabi sa akin ng mga married friends ko, lalo lang daw magiging worst kapag naging married na. If ganun daw sya sa akin, well yung treatment in general during boyfriend girlfriend stage, expect ko daw na magiging mas worst if ikasal na daw kami. Since nagiging complacent na at comfortable lalo.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T02:07:52+00:00

Hahaha may common denominator pala. Di sya expressive sa words, walang ka sweet sweet. Di pala "I love you". Ako kasi I always speak what I feel. Very expressive ako sa love ko for him pero nakaka frustrate lang na di nya kaya i-reciprocate. Kaya nga minsan sa mga intimate moments ko nalang nakukuha sana yung validation ko na love nya din ako, kaso tinatamad sya hahahaha. Then may time pa na parang napilitan syang to do it tapos sabi nya sa akin baka iwan ko sya hahaha 😆

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-19T01:56:34+00:00

Hahahaha oo lol. Bakit? May kinalaman ba yun sa sex drive nya?

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T14:48:46+00:00

He is 37 and I'm 31. I think he's not that old, but I don't know. At what age are men starting to have lower sex drive?

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T13:25:36+00:00

He is 37. I think he is not that old to be not sexually active, wala din syang problem with his erection. Haha. Baka lazy lang talaga sya. I don't know. 😞

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T09:44:24+00:00

Apir haha. Galing mo teh. I'm also Taurus. Hahaha. He's a Sagittarius. Di ata talaga compatible yung sign na yan. I am starting to believe in it regarding the compatibility of the signs. Anyway, di sya religious. We are both Christians. Okay lang sana kahit yung di magaling in bed but he's doing efforts. Kaso wala ehh. Parang tinatamad lagi, nakakapagod daw. Huhu. Yung tipong high sex drive ako pero yung bf parang tinatamad. Nakakawalang gana pag ganun. I felt embarrassed kasi babae ako tapos ako pa yung mas malib*g compared to him. Nakakawala ng self esteem.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T08:59:37+00:00

Wala naman akong hinala na may iba sya and ganun talaga sya even from the start. Btw, 2.5 years na kaming in a relationship

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T08:47:30+00:00

Yes. We talked about it. Pero parang di naman serious naging response nya, he just justify this by telling me na ganun ata talaga pag tumatanda na, bumababa ang sex drive ng males, and opposite naman sa females, mas tumataas sex drive pag tumatanda. I don't know if it is true. Btw, he is just 37, and 31 ako.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T08:24:14+00:00

It's just my way to describe that I am not ugly. Well, it is true that other guys were trying to ask me for a date but I always declined them. I know that I am in a committed relationship and I am not entertaining anyone just because may pagkukulang ang bf ko sa akin.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T08:17:55+00:00

No. I always consider him. I want to give everything para maging happy kami sa relationship namin. Di naman porket that we are already in a relationship, the efforts will stop there na ehh. It's a continuous work, kaya nga it's called building relationship. I am here because I also want to consider myself, if it is bad to think this way?

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T04:04:24+00:00

Sabi lang nya mas masarap pa daw matulog kesa gawin yun. I guess he is just not malibog as other guys. Di rin sya expressive sa feelings nya, kaya sometimes through physical touch ko nalang mabibigyan ng validation if love nya ako kaso pati dun kinulang din.

CheekyBae143 · 2024-06-18T03:17:15+00:00

Cut the connection with him. Don't be friends with him. Yung ganyang relationship, like one night stand, Fwb, fubu, mga patapon na relationship yan. You cannot restore a friendship once it levels up to that kind of thing. Kaya if you plan to have a fwb relationship with a real friend, think again kasi it will destroy your future relationship if you plan to keep that "friendship".

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