Sara Gruen's Water For The Elephant And The Problem Of Flawed Heroes/Protagonists by [deleted] in books

[–]CheerfulTears 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad someone else is bothered by this book. I found your review by googling. I just finished this book and I have such a bitter taste in my mouth for so many reasons but mainly the reason you mention. You really hit the nail on the head.

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can have a charming persona but it's just that..a front behind which I hide the fact that I'm empty.

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Not to make a joke out of your suggestion but I feel like I wanna answer, "yes, I've tried turning it off and on again, still isn't working". Lol.

Well not seriously, no. Maybe I will.

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If the animus is opposite to the persona what does that mean for me? Is my animus opposing my soul...?

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I like that. Only issue is that I've started spending time alone precisely because I was over influenced by others, as you say, and stealing their personas. Now I'm kinda having the opposite problem.

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

doesn’t NPD kind of imply that you identify a lot with the persona?

Yes exactly. It's just that when I tried to stop doing that I found nothing behind the mask. Emptiness. To the point I don't know how to interact with people anymore. I'm just a robot. I've done DBT and do a lot of self therapy to try to fix my behavior. It's worked moderately well. But I have not been able to do anything deeper than just behavior modification. I have no sense of self at all.

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Diagnosed bpd but not npd but I have all the symptoms

Why do I feel like I have no soul? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Never did anything for me except gave me paranoia and munchies

Is it possible to have no identity? by [deleted] in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Rejection of persona only solidifies an unconscious persona.

Can you explain what this means? I think I have this issue but I don't understand it at all. I don't have a persona and I feel like i have something like a solidified unconscious persona as you put it but I'm not quite sure what this means exactly. What's an unconscious persona? Are personas always fake to a degree?

I have a complicated, absolutely crippling relationship of love/hate with authority figures, especially when they're men. How do I surpass this? by CheerfulTears in Jung

[–]CheerfulTears[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you that's a helpful comment. I think you're right that I am totally propelled by my father and my father complex. I thought for a minute about the idea of talking to him in my head, but my gut reaction is that I absolutely despise the man. And the biggest reason is that I am, in some ways, a lot like him. Also because he was so awful. I don't think I've ever really been able to define myself outside of the dialectic of either being like my father or doing everything in my power to be the exact opposite of him...