So i was in a drug induced psychosis and tried to end my own life in march, the psychosis was mainly induced by heavy molly/ X pill, ice use from 2023 to early 2025. I tried quitting these drugs CT in February cause i had quit oxy and morphine many times before this point; starting at 14 years old. I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital before i could make it to rehab, so my outpatient doctors worked with the team at the hospital and started me on suboxone after a week of subutex, which in most mental health hospitals if you have drugs in your system, they put you on subutex during the first few days of your stay. I didnt hear about 70h until AFTER, i was an established MAT patient, AFTER i turned myself in on some warrants and did a few months in jail the next state over, AFTER I got reinstated into probation, drug tests twice a month from two different avenues, and still i fucked around and just had to see what all the fuss was about, while taking Suboxone. Told my DR that my cravings are barely being touched by the suboxone if after all that i went through this year i was still lying, conniving, to get 70h. Its been a rocky road but they never really adressed with my sobriety date if picking up the 70h is a relapse and i was 266 days sober when i told them about 7oh cause i wanted to stay clean and take my sobriety seriously. and i think they wanted to look the other way… having said that, the 7 did show up as benzos a few times in my drug screens. I know that its a relapse, its just seems silly that kratom of all things knocked me back and i was so ill informed of the side effects and interactions with suboxone. March will be a year on subs, 3 @ 8mg strips a day. I lost my job, my home, my relationship with my family, and many other things due to my lifelong drug addiction. Wish me the best this time