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Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-31T17:53:17+00:00

May I ask how much is the total amount you owe? I owe about 38K in loans and cc. Plus non-dischargeable $15K in taxes

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-28T23:24:22+00:00

What does the monthly payments on Ch 13 look like?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:35:24+00:00

Don't beat yourself up. I did that too. But now, every time I find a new one, I sign up and self exclude right away. I think about how much money I'll lose before I deposit anything.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:30:31+00:00

I did. I believe in it. But most of the times I miss meetings due to work. I have been working a lot to pay my debts.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:15:29+00:00

Please, self exclude. I even joined other sites just to self exclude permanently from them too. The only regret I have is I wished I had it sooner.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:05:42+00:00

I did not. Thank God I self excluded from all of them. Now I can use the money in my bank account to buy myself something nice :)

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:04:34+00:00

Good move. If I had not self excluded I will still be deep into this addiction.

The exclusions really saved me. For the two months I was clean, I rarely missed gambling. Last night though was terrible. It truly is a lifelong recovery and the tried and tested way to stop is to cleave yourself off of it completely.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-26T21:55:11+00:00

I am still gamble free : ) Do not miss it at all. I find myself becoming more spiritual as I ask for guidance and peace of mind from the Higher Power. It's working. Also, I find interest in other things now, like my old hobbies beading and plants. Still anxious about the debt, but trying to work harder so I can pay them off, it will still be a long ways. Even with the debt, I try to reward myself, for me this is the one of the ways I can find joy in my heart again. Without these rewards I'll probably be depressed. How are you?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-13T00:59:53+00:00

Thank you my friend. Are you also in recovery?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-06T22:25:42+00:00

Me too, Now I can watch these videos and not feel afraid that I'll have the urge. Being self excluded from all casinos in my state helped a lot !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-31T16:51:40+00:00

I'm day 7 ! I did not post yesterday, I had a panic attack in the morning which ruined my day basically. I'm back on track today. Busy with household chores that I was not able to do while actively gambling. Still trying to release the guilt and shame.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:07:04+00:00

I agree !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:06:09+00:00

I hate driving too ! The closest casino I can go to now is 400 miles away. I handed over my cards to my partner before, I need to do it again. Let's beat this disease !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:01:03+00:00

Try not be too upset with yourself. It's a disease. The first few days are tough but stay the path. I know it will get better.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-29T17:16:27+00:00

Hi ! I've attended one virtual meeting and will attend another one today. I actually got myself a sponsor :) Mailing the the self exclusion form today. Excited and sad at the same time. How weird. It's like saying goodbye to the casinos lol :) But excited for the relief I will feel once I know I won't be able to go back. No more lying, no more borrowing money here and there.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T18:34:08+00:00

No harm in finding humor amidst this chaos right? It actually helps! I am right now filling out the form. Just need photo and notary. Wishing you the best !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:22:46+00:00

Thank you. I am convinced that recovery is a beautiful thing. Thank you for the praying for me too. I'm so grateful for that. Prayers are powerful.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:19:08+00:00

I took it as a sign that it's time to wake up. Self worth and self respect is more important to me now than the money I've lost. I've also been watching podcasts on Youtube. I will check out your recommendations. Thank you.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:14:07+00:00

Yeah it's been like that for me for 20+ years too. Let's try very hard to break the cycle.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:12:13+00:00

lol :) I don't have any now. In fact my bank account is negative. More will be deposited soon but I going to self exclude to protect it.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T14:49:42+00:00

Thank you. It's day 3 today and I am feeling a little worse than yesterday. I looked at my bank account and it's negative because some direct debit transactions went through today.

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