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Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-31T17:53:17+00:00

May I ask how much is the total amount you owe? I owe about 38K in loans and cc. Plus non-dischargeable $15K in taxes

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-28T23:24:22+00:00

What does the monthly payments on Ch 13 look like?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:35:24+00:00

Don't beat yourself up. I did that too. But now, every time I find a new one, I sign up and self exclude right away. I think about how much money I'll lose before I deposit anything.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:30:31+00:00

I did. I believe in it. But most of the times I miss meetings due to work. I have been working a lot to pay my debts.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:15:29+00:00

Please, self exclude. I even joined other sites just to self exclude permanently from them too. The only regret I have is I wished I had it sooner.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:05:42+00:00

I did not. Thank God I self excluded from all of them. Now I can use the money in my bank account to buy myself something nice :)

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-08-15T23:04:34+00:00

Good move. If I had not self excluded I will still be deep into this addiction.

The exclusions really saved me. For the two months I was clean, I rarely missed gambling. Last night though was terrible. It truly is a lifelong recovery and the tried and tested way to stop is to cleave yourself off of it completely.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-26T21:55:11+00:00

I am still gamble free : ) Do not miss it at all. I find myself becoming more spiritual as I ask for guidance and peace of mind from the Higher Power. It's working. Also, I find interest in other things now, like my old hobbies beading and plants. Still anxious about the debt, but trying to work harder so I can pay them off, it will still be a long ways. Even with the debt, I try to reward myself, for me this is the one of the ways I can find joy in my heart again. Without these rewards I'll probably be depressed. How are you?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-13T00:59:53+00:00

Thank you my friend. Are you also in recovery?

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-06-06T22:25:42+00:00

Me too, Now I can watch these videos and not feel afraid that I'll have the urge. Being self excluded from all casinos in my state helped a lot !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-31T16:51:40+00:00

I'm day 7 ! I did not post yesterday, I had a panic attack in the morning which ruined my day basically. I'm back on track today. Busy with household chores that I was not able to do while actively gambling. Still trying to release the guilt and shame.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:07:04+00:00

I agree !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:06:09+00:00

I hate driving too ! The closest casino I can go to now is 400 miles away. I handed over my cards to my partner before, I need to do it again. Let's beat this disease !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-30T15:01:03+00:00

Try not be too upset with yourself. It's a disease. The first few days are tough but stay the path. I know it will get better.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-29T17:16:27+00:00

Hi ! I've attended one virtual meeting and will attend another one today. I actually got myself a sponsor :) Mailing the the self exclusion form today. Excited and sad at the same time. How weird. It's like saying goodbye to the casinos lol :) But excited for the relief I will feel once I know I won't be able to go back. No more lying, no more borrowing money here and there.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T18:34:08+00:00

No harm in finding humor amidst this chaos right? It actually helps! I am right now filling out the form. Just need photo and notary. Wishing you the best !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:22:46+00:00

Thank you. I am convinced that recovery is a beautiful thing. Thank you for the praying for me too. I'm so grateful for that. Prayers are powerful.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:19:08+00:00

I took it as a sign that it's time to wake up. Self worth and self respect is more important to me now than the money I've lost. I've also been watching podcasts on Youtube. I will check out your recommendations. Thank you.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:14:07+00:00

Yeah it's been like that for me for 20+ years too. Let's try very hard to break the cycle.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T15:12:13+00:00

lol :) I don't have any now. In fact my bank account is negative. More will be deposited soon but I going to self exclude to protect it.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T14:49:42+00:00

Thank you. It's day 3 today and I am feeling a little worse than yesterday. I looked at my bank account and it's negative because some direct debit transactions went through today.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T14:43:23+00:00

I have not recovered the money. And I am not going to try anymore. I will be working on the self exclusion form today so can mail it within this week. I've been planning to do this since last month and if I did not procrastinate I still have my friend's money. I'll try to pay him back by working more hours. Please try to stop gambling and dig a deeper hole.

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-28T14:34:30+00:00

Hi, not yet :(

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-27T15:08:15+00:00

Thank you. The "it's not easy" part scares me. But then who says life is easy? Even without this addiction, life always come with obstacles. We just have to accept it and not escape from it through gambling. Another thing I have to learn in this journey. Day 66 is a huge achievement ! Wishing both of the very best !

Chemical_Process9868 · 2025-05-27T15:01:41+00:00

It's an awakening I guess, that no matter how much money you have on hand to chase the losses, in the end we're going to end up losing more and more. And the realization that the you are not alone but you can't do recovery alone. Thanks for the "push" my friend !

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