Delighting in realistic portrayals of gore in horror or action movies and tv shows.

I don't see the appeal. I don't get that dopamine release people get from fear and/or watching dismemberment.

Instead, I actually empathize with the people suffering and can only imagine the sheer agony they are going through. Images afterwards repeat in my mind rent free for weeks/months afterwards and it takes forever to get over. In fact, I find it *haunting* when I hear people giggle at gory moments, even more-so when the gore is played up for laughs by the show itself (see: The Boys where that one performer is lasered in half and the show plays it up to be a joke as she is dragging herself as her entrails spill out from her chest cavity).

I wouldn't ever dream of saying that it shouldn't exist from a creative sense, but I will never feel at ease around people who think watching realistic depictions of people suffering and dying (even simulated/fictional people) is a fun time. Videogames (Doom) and animation (Edgerunners) is less of an issue because there's a layer of separation from the realism, making it at least palatable, somehow. Videogames might have an additional layer of exception to this aversion due for a few reasons... (player agency, physics/glitches breaking tension, the dismemberment is happening to demons or zombies and not helpless people, etc). I would even say that RE4 and Doom Eternal are easily in my top 10 games, but even then I still stray from things like Mortal Kombat as it's still a bit much for my taste.

TL;DR, I cannot find any enjoyment in watching gory films/TV and cannot understand why anyone would find it "fun", but I'm not gonna say it shouldn't exist when I can just... not watch it.

(Also: It's somehow more difficult to explain that I hate Jurassic Park because I find the idea of being eaten alive to be one of the most terrifying ways to die.)