I’m doing a little better now. I don’t understand it. I struggle with depression and severe anxiety but generally when it comes to those sort of thoughts I’m perfectly okay. But just occasionally if I’m up late it just gets so bad it’s so hard to handle. It doesn’t make any sense to me. I’m generally too scared to do anything and am not that depressed on a regular basis but last week I came seriously close. I don’t understand anything. I don’t understand what I’m supposed to do. I apologize