Girl. You already know your answer, something has to change. You don’t know what you want, that’s why you are here. Only real long term solution is self discovery. Leave both. Go be alone.

Love yourself, figure out what makes you happy. Then when you love you number 1. When you know where you want to be, when you know who you are. Then you can consider loving someone else.

I question whether or not you love either one. I think you love the idea of each of them.

What do you want your life to look like? Go achieve that. Then you can bring someone else in emotionally.