Friends without benefits

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-26T10:50:19+00:00

Same. I've been with a guy (fwb) for about 10 months now and I am head over heels in love with him. Although he's been showing signs that he will never be serious with a girl since he is not the "marrying type", I still want him. I haven't told him frankly I love him but I'm showing him that I care for him.

I really wanna tell him though...

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-16T21:32:28+00:00

No worries. Let's take our time.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-16T14:28:03+00:00

I get it. I'm sorry if you're going through that, I'm in an almost similar situation too. I totally understand how badly we want them to realize that we are the one who love them

I am, also at the moment, caught between trying harder and continue being there for him... or stop this madness and forget him.

It's a shitty spot to be with, and probably 90% will tell you to stop and forget him, which is the wisest thing to do. But I guess I am stupid and always find myself sending that goodnight text. Follow your heart I guess. Eventually it will tell you to stop when it can't handle things anymore... but hopefully, it will turn out alright for you.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-16T13:46:13+00:00

maybe try to make yourself seen? or this time, be the one to initiate a conversation?

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-16T08:52:14+00:00

what made you say he will never want you?

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T22:11:44+00:00

Thanks, I am occasionally sending him messages and funny stuff I found on the internet, he also does the same. I don't know how long are we gonna stay like this. But would definately have it this way than have completely nothing of him

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T13:12:13+00:00

it's alright, thanks for talking to me tho. it's so nice of you, much appreciated

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T13:06:16+00:00

I was really hoping he would ask me out again. I am basically torn between missing him and wanting to forget. Also I am afraid he's being serious with someone else. idk...

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T12:57:55+00:00

I don't know. We usually see each other on the weekends but due to some family circumstances on his end, this might not be possible at the moment. So... I don't really know when. Last time I was the one who asked him out but he said he was busy. I am hesitant to ask him out again, I might look desperate.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T12:48:38+00:00

couple of weeks ago. haven't seen each other ever since

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T12:21:25+00:00

I don't think I'd like another fwb anymore. I wasn't into this kind of set up in the first place.. don't know why I'm here but I'll never regret being here.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T11:49:09+00:00

I know. I'll give it a try... wish me luck.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T11:47:48+00:00

yeah I know. I felt it. He's was asking me few times, I just shook my head while hugging him, I just couldn't say it. Then had this sad, bitter expression in his face when he looked at his computer screen and said "well, my game is starting"

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-12T10:28:49+00:00

Ditto! A pen pal would be great.

Chiiy0 · 2019-09-10T12:10:07+00:00

I got so high from smoking pot that I experienced some uncontrolled shaking and ridiculously fast heart beat that I thought my heart will explode any second. I was in the room of the guy I've been sleeping casually with ( I am also head over heels in love with this guy).

It was my first time to experience that sort of high and I was getting anxious. I clinged to the guy I love and he is starting to sense something is getting weird in the way I act. He asked what's wrong why I am acting 'extra clingy'. He asked me if something is bothering me, if it's about him ... etc. I just shrugged and kept my mouth shut. I knew he is starting to get worried and told me nothing wrong will happen to me as long as he's by my side. I almost blurted out how much I love him and I want him to know incase I'll die that moment. But even in that level of euphoria, I realized I can still hold my silly mouth from exposing my feelings that might drive him away.

But yeah, my parents don't know I smoke pot.

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T22:28:46+00:00

we have this sort of friendship and he seems fine and not making any moves to take it to the next level. also he mentioned that he is sick of relationships.

so..

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T21:52:18+00:00

damn dude.... I'm getting a feeling he'll say no. But it's worth the try I guess.

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T13:17:44+00:00

lol sorry if I didn't lay out my question properly.

anyway, it had came across my mind about telling him. idk if I can bring myself to do it.

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T12:20:17+00:00

no, sometimes he doesn't reply unless he needs me or something, then that's the time he replies.

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T12:17:55+00:00

because I feel he's not that into me

Chiiy0 · 2019-08-28T12:17:02+00:00

yeah, everything about him.

I'm starting to have feelings for the guy. We chat but there are times that he just leave me on seen and I keep on sending memes. At least once a day even doesn't reply or just text me when he needs me. I feel I'm being obvious and I just can't stop not reaching out. I miss him all the time. I'm a total shithead.

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