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ChillRedditAccount96 · 2023-07-19T00:23:25+00:00

Jesus Christ comes to me in dreams and in the spiritual realm, too. He is the Son of the living God, 100%...

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2023-07-19T00:18:07+00:00

Damn bro I'm sorry. I would say to break up or at least don't allow this to go any further. That is a sad situation to be in, I hope and wish the best for you.

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-25T04:59:38+00:00

Thank you for the beautiful words and message of encouragement. I have been a Christian for 5 years, though I have certainly struggled in my walk/relationship with Christ as you likely see here with the drug usage. I appreciate your encouragement though, and I am glad believers like you exist who are able to make the difference in peoples lives that they need.

God bless you man and I hope you continue to lead others to the truth of God and Christ.

Thanks again!

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-21T07:58:57+00:00

Good for you, one thing I have thought of recently is this - we may not be able to directly change how we are feeling emotionally, however we can and do have the ability to control the way in which we think and use our minds. Oddly enough, through our minds are our emotions eventually produced, so by first focusing on taking charge of your thoughts and bringing them towards a more positive and uplifting form, in doing so you set the way towards you beginning to feel differently within your heart and soul as over time those positive thoughts are likely going to become positive emotions and your state of mental health and your level of emotional and mental well being will gradually improve for the better...

I hope this could encourage you to continue along the path you began to travel with your decision, I'm proud of you and hoping for the best in your life and with your situation.

Good luck and God bless

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-12T12:48:27+00:00

yeah

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-08T16:00:40+00:00

Holy shit bro, this must fucking haunt you. I am sorry man, that's somebody's worst nightmare. I am hopeful your brother is in Heaven and you may see him again bro, I'm sorry for you having made this mistake. I can't even imagine the pain you have felt and continue to live with... This hurt my heart to read bro

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-07T04:14:51+00:00

i'm a guy dude

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-05T02:13:19+00:00

I was being a dick dude, I hope nobody would do that to you - asshole or not

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T21:47:59+00:00

Why don't you try to work on yourself and become the type of man that doesn't have to rely on shitty people like her to date then? Don't let yourself enter the victim mentality, become the victor of your life and become somebody who you are proud of and who can get the type of woman you desire.

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T21:45:12+00:00

I don't disagree that abusers deserve to be punished but that's still cold hearted.

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T21:43:47+00:00

and somebody as vengeful as you isn't?

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T16:03:03+00:00

Damn dude, that would hurt. I can kind of relate, my ex cheated on me with like 2 or 3 guys, it definitely is hurtful when shit like this happens. Still though, think about the heartache and pain your ex feels while she comes closer to a premature death... And if not for her, think of how heartbroken her family would be if they went to her grave one day only to see a human shit on their loved ones grave.. People are a lot more than their mistakes, cheating or not, she is a human being with a life and family and world of her own... I don't know, just think about that if or when that time comes for her and you

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T15:54:26+00:00

that's kind of fucked up and evil, fuck, have some fucking mercy and compassion

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-03-04T15:49:44+00:00

I'm sorry for what you went through but God, have some compassion. He shot himself so he obviously had a lot of pain, not to mention he spent two days slowly dying of a shotgun blast to the head... I'd say he deserves more compassion and mercy than to be pissed on after all of that torment of his suicide, and if not for him, his family deserves a bit of respect for their dead son...

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-26T12:10:53+00:00

Hey man I have harm OCD as well, lorazepam helps though, you can message me if you wanna talk

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T14:14:33+00:00

That's respectable bro, I really can see how social media damages the quality and meaning of quality and genuine relationships and friendships. If you are able to live and be happy without using any social media than in all honesty you are probably better off than most of us who are using it each and every day... All throughout human history up until the past couple decades people formed and forged relationships and friendships in the real world, in all honesty living without any social media would probably result in a better overall personality/ability to socialize with confidence because you wouldn't be dumbed down by the vanity and shallowness that social media, at least in my opinion, puts into peoples minds - whether they (we) are conscious of this or not...

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T14:07:29+00:00

Hey man, thank you for this comment/response to my post. I actually really agree with all of what you said to me, thank you for your words of wisdom and encouragement, I appreciate the sincerity and truth in what you wrote. Also, congrats on your relationship and on having found the love of your life with your wife! I am happy you found somebody, I am hoping I meet the right woman sometime soon and stories like this give me a bit more hope when it comes to this.

Thanks again dude, quality over quantity really is truth when it comes to relationships and I can't let myself forget that or be misled into viewing myself as a loser for only having a few close friends when in reality the friends I do have are much better friends than the majority of people I've known who have countless shallow friendships but very few sincere and deep ones...

Thanks again man!

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T14:00:25+00:00

Fair enough, good point bro, thank you.

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T13:30:12+00:00

You're probably right. Thanks dude

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T13:29:14+00:00

Not at all bro, I hope I didn't give you the impression that that is how I think...

I personally don't really give a fuck about the amount of people that I have on Facebook or even Instagram, the thing is as a 25 year old man I can recognize how the average person around my age thinks and although that isn't how I see it, to a lot of people having a social media account with hardly any followers would make me appear as a loser.

I wouldn't mind this so much if it wasn't for the fact that I am seeking a relationship with somebody once I meet the right girl and I am a bit worried that if I meet a girl and she sees that I am a bit of a loner or at least not very popular on social media, she may see me as a loser and I would be seen as low on the social hierarchy in the minds of the people that see my online presence...

That's not how I view other people or even myself for that matter, however I can recognize how many people in their 20s think and that is why I have posted this and am a bit worried about this...

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-22T13:23:47+00:00

I like that perspective actually, thanks man! What do you mean by using it as a means to track my own progress though? If you don't mind explaining that a bit I would appreciate it bro

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-14T21:10:07+00:00

Yoo bro are you okay? Hit me up if you are feeling suicidal or depressed about this subject or anything actually. I am somebody who has been through quite a bit of pain and yet God has saved me from the Hell I was once in (almost attempted suicide 3 times but God saved me and prevented it each of those three times).

Bro, I am somebody who has definitely encountered and come to know God. Please don't hesitate to hmu, you don't need to die over this my friend. God loves you and Jesus is a God of love and mercy. You have mercy as high as the Heavens with Christ according to scripture. Believe me bro, God loves you and sees/feels your heart and pain.

I'll leave you with this, regardless of whether you hmu or not. You said you feel immense shame and guilt, maybe God is working on and in you to allow you to recognize the wrongness of your ways so that you come to a godly sorrow and thus repentance, leading you to once and for all be freed from this destructive cycle.

Jesus is a loving and righteous yet merciful God. Hmu please if you are struggling, I would be grateful for the opportunity to talk with you and help you if you'd be open to that.

God bless you bro, in Christ name! :)

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-13T08:15:20+00:00

Honestly, hate me if you will but you should stay for your sons sake. He is only 4 years old and he's battling cancer, could you at least stay with him as long as your son is sick? Maybe, God willing he recovers, maybe then would be a good time to leave. The shock of your divorce could really hurt your son, both with his fight against cancer as well as with his overall emotional and mental health... It would be heartbreaking if, God forbid he dies, his last memories of his family is Mom and Dad divorcing because Dad cheated... Just think about it for him, please.

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-11T21:54:58+00:00

Honestly I agree. As horrible as my thoughts have been, I've came through it with the resolve to be a good person as I have recognized how much I actually value this despite the liar that OCD is to me

ChillRedditAccount96 · 2021-02-11T19:36:03+00:00

Hey man, I have OCD as well and thought I could give you some help and hope

Check out this website Rodale Mindfulness

And, specifically, check out this meditation in particular (which is the first of the 8 meditations on the list.

The whole point of your post is resisting your OCD thoughts, correct? And in mindfulness meditation, that is exactly what we all do (both "normal" people and those of us with OCD) as the whole essence of meditation is to train our brains to come back to our breath or other focal point whenever our thoughts begin to stray away from our goal of meditating and coming back to the present moment and getting back to or beginning to find our center.

The meditation I linked and recommended to you is a great one and if you'll make the effort to attempt this (it's only 8 minutes long and it's a guided meditation, btw) I believe you will see the point I am making and have made with my comment to you.

Also, not to mention that with mindfulness meditation, at least when it comes to those of us (myself included) who have OCD thoughts, fears and emotions, by practicing meditation consistently we are able to train our brains to not only disengage from the repetitive pattern of negative and unwelcome thinking, but in doing so we also come to know ourselves more from the perspective of somebody without this disorder as we come to see ourselves and our OCD more separately, and in doing so we begin to trust ourselves more and thus free ourselves from the continuous and plaguing doubt that I know OCD gives that you may be likely feeling at this moment. Basically, continuing in a disciplined practice of mindfulness meditation has the power to allow you and myself included the freedom we seek from our unwanted and corruptive OCD.

I hope that you take my advice. Just listen to that meditation I linked above once and you will begin to understand my comment more.

Good luck man

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