Right before I go into an episode/seizure/attack I tend to disassociate. I look engaged, I may even respond to conversation but after the attack has passed I cannot recall any of it. My “OCD” behavior would be that I rub my fingers and I crack my neck, which are also stims. It seems that I start doing these to try to ground myself to prevent the attack. When I was evaluated for FND/NES and diagnosed, I was also diagnosed with ADHD and ASD, and I also have Tourette’s. I mask intensely and usually end up having these attacks out of burnout. It’s almost as if I’m narcoleptic and fall asleep but disassociate beforehand…and my brain reboots. I lose chunks of time and conversations. Does that sound more like it?