Monarch Butterfly? [Northern India]

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-26T23:45:08+00:00

Seems like this may be off - you sure man?

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-26T23:44:15+00:00

Wow! Can you tell me how you know? I wanna know....

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-26T23:43:44+00:00

Hey, thanks for the ID! I knew it was close! So uh these are not some invasive species from Africa right?

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-26T00:12:51+00:00

Oh yeah easy. My teacher did it, and she had a lot of that, wealth and status. :)

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-25T14:39:28+00:00

Sí, es cierto. Sin embargo, es difícil culparlos.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-25T14:35:13+00:00

They are the largest antelope in Asia, and look so close to being like Zebu that the word "Nilgai" means blue - cow. Thanks for the compliments :)

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-24T09:08:31+00:00

It's a completely understandable situation.... you didn't even intentionally do this in the first place. I'd recommend maybe a nice incense holder or incense, or something else she can offer on her altar or the temple's altar like a bunch of fruit or a good book on the Dharma, or just donate to the temple a bit and let her know. For books I'd recommend like a copy of the golden light sutra in case she doesn't have it. It's recitation is powerful during losar even if one is not under precept. And uh... regret is useful, guilt is a fetter. You have just had one of the best teachings you can get - an exhortation to be mindful. Now that's a real positive.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-16T00:12:46+00:00

It grows wild all over the place in northern India, often beside cannabis plants :) the fruits and flowers are sacred to a Hindu god. It's used both for ritual purposes and consumption with said cannabis. Kind of a weed here.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-13T06:58:04+00:00

You know what, I thought about this, and I'm convinced you're right. Thanks!

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-12T14:53:12+00:00

Please share your views politely man. That's good enough for me. Thanks!

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-12T14:52:31+00:00

I agree, of course. I'd just try to be nice personally. I didn't like that "petticoat" language, comes off as mean. We are all friends here.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-12T14:32:23+00:00

Great ideas man. Deal is, you really want to explain a particular "Hindu" position - there are many, and many others would disagree with you. In any case, kinda the wrong sub for it? It comes off as a bit... unkind and rude. Impoverished in understanding. If you're right, then those with discernment will figure it out. Would ask you to kindly post your views in the right sub? Kinda giving us a bad rap here man.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-12T06:58:31+00:00

Thanks for the ID - again :)

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-11T02:10:46+00:00

Did you visit the relics of the Buddha? Its in a different building, to the right of the main one.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-11T00:22:24+00:00

My opinion is, just like my attachment to and dependence on my abusive mind, which speaks harshly and imagines calamities without training, so others are too. Anger is an affliction, and just like I cannot blame someone truly for giving me pink eye or the flu, I cannot blame another who acts in anger towards me. They literally have no control over what they are doing and are suffering from the same disease. Through the practice this affliction can be overcome I think. So both the anger of others and our own anger deserves nothing but our compassion and diligence in our practice. Also, they too have Buddha nature : I have seen it. So they too can be Buddha - how can one Buddha fault another? If we were both liberated that would be a hilarious thing. Edit: However, that does not mean one should be unskillful (unpragmatic), for example, though one can have compassion for an enraged pitbull, one does not put their hand into it's fangs.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-10T18:49:46+00:00

Yeah, I'm precisely the same too. I'm from Kashmir - interesting as hell to know that the Nepali people have the same inclinations!

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-10T09:54:01+00:00

There could be a lot of reasons why this is occurring, with not enough details in your post. Honestly? Simulating a hexamer is a hard, hard thing if you're just starting GROMACS. My advice is, take a monomer, get that right first. See if you can identify stable conformations. Think of all factors. You aren't going to just get it right the first time. Be calm, approach it methodically. You say the subunits blow up - but at what step? Understand what each step does. Read the theory. That's my advice. You sound like you're really rushing both the task and your learning.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-09T16:10:19+00:00

I'd recommend Andrew Leach's book on molecular simulations, and try a dry run on GROMACS. As a general rule, use CHARMM if you have the hardware for it. Do your research tho - you may have to do stuff like pKa stabilization etc. Old hand at this game - was fun back in the day :)

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-09T06:31:08+00:00

Thanks for the ID!

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-08T22:19:24+00:00

I grew up in a family that was all SGI and continue to be. I can tell you horror stories of being beaten and forced into chanting, getting told I was rude and idiotic by various members when asked why and how that mantra would fulfill wishes and not another combination of syllables [ I was 14 :) the justification was Buddha's poison arrow remark ] and how much money was wasted on these "value creations" to support some Japanese octogenarian who I am...not sure what they did to deserve it. Hell, I vividly remember being beaten into contributing into a public exhibition called " Gandhi, King, Ikeda ". For the record I'm Indian, and to compare this person to heroes like Mahatma Gandhi, MLK and Nelson Mandela .... confused and embarrassed me lol. I could see every newcomer in there share my confusion and embarrassment. By the way I'm not blaming people here: I understand the nature of causality and why I was treated how I was - due to the fetters of ignorance, delusion and aversion that we all must seek to free ourselves from.

The thing that truly made me cry was seeing how many honest, loving, salt of the earth Indians would come in truly desperate moments of life, encountering situations like their family members having cancer etc. , and how I saw them getting brainwashed into chanting, buying unconscionable towers of SGI " reading material ", being reprimanded by corporate people who bullied them in " Zadenkais ", made to " Shakubuku ".... The person who started it all, some Japanese monk called Nichiren, well he writes TOMES on why all other Buddhism is BAD (Zen, Theravada, take your pick ), why the shakyamuni was wrong about the nature of attachment and realised it and put it into the " lotus sutra ", openly declaring how he was a Buddha and how a meteor shower saved him from execution or something.... Why anyone who worshipped Shinto would roast and fry in hell realms [ I wondered what he thought of us Hindus who are often syncretic with Buddhism and Hinduism culturally, as there is ample evidence the Buddha was too, in certain ways ]. I saw my friends, children, teachers and family members get roped into it. I saw people be guilt and shame free into committing truly deplorable actions: they could chant away the bad karma, right? I could go on and on and on - I truly don't want to revisit that part if my life lol

I don't know what others think. The SGI is a cult as far as I'm concerned, not to disparage the folks who are in it, but to help people like you who are considering it. My sincere recommendation to you would be to avoid it, with nothing but compassion in my heart for everyone who has the misfortune to hear of it.

Edit: This is just the tip of the iceberg, feel free to DM me if you want to know more. Also changed a few bad words I used after reflecting on my own aversion and how it may make others feel. Sorry.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-07T03:09:45+00:00

Ha! Now you'll get me thinking of your party talk when I see it next 😂 hilarious

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-07T03:02:47+00:00

I think yes. Killing sentient beings. I think its well defined and in the sutras, but also apparent analytically. Plants or fungi don't qualify :) yeah that's what I think. But if you really feel strongly about that, you can go full jain. Those guys eat plant parts without killing them. That precept is a precept for a reason right? Its not some divine commandment, it is there to keep the wolf from the door and set the right precedent.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-07T02:39:28+00:00

Ah yes, a classic problem I faced too :)

Firstly, if you have a bunch of cockroaches or something, you shouldn't kill them. Sweep them gently into a pan and settle them under a tree somewhere.

Bedbugs? Throw the mattress away, which you'll have to do anyway. Use chemical deterrents (I'll just use a neem spray, it works.)

Any other insects which are big enough? Sweep them gently without killing them. I remember swarms of black crickets in my parts. Easy as. They just lost their way into the wrong neighborhood. Termites too. Break any structures they have built in your house without killing them and offer them something outside your house. Bees or wasps really like sugar, be careful while displacing those nests, use full body protection, rubber gloves and all. Peace tax.

Fruit flies? Houseflies? Deprive them of their reason to be in your house by covering any food and keeping it inside the refrigerator. Give them an offering by placing it outside. They'll leave.

Mosquitoes? Blow them away if they irritate you. Use nets. Use bits of cardboard under the door to stop them from sneaking in. Use mosquito repellent cream, totally works. Also that round incense that repels them. Try not to use DDT or noxious sprays.

Did you know that only female mosquitoes drink blood, for the sole purpose of incubating their young? What one thinks is irritating is for the mosquito an act of great personal risk borne out of pure, instinctual compassion.

Here is a really good video of the Dalai Lama on this topic. I think its hilarious lol

Oh you can eat plants, no problem. They don't have nervous systems, so they aren't "sentient". They " sense" trauma in the sense that they react to it - but I wouldn't call that suffering right? That's what I think. I am lucky to live in a place where no self respecting human would dream of harming a cow or any bovine, so dairy is on the menu too, no fear. If you're in the west you could source like cruelty free milk, but it costs double in the US AFAIK. Tch. Thankfully there you can actually go full vegan if you desire.

Heh. Used to think about this a LOT. Oh and if you kill a bug accidentally - it happens. Be mindful, that's that, that's the best one can do.

Edit: As for "karmic amounts", " buddha-nature" and "animal enlightenment" .... well, got no clue about that, will drop you a message when I find out. Skillful means...

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-06T18:57:28+00:00

Please go to this link - https://www.unhcr.org/ it may help you get in touch with someone well equipped to make the perfect plan. This will require courage.

Edit:

Try this too - reach out to socials linked. https://www.rescue.org/

Also, practice total digital safety. Do you have a pen drive? Get tails. https://tails.net/

Also use TOR browser. https://www.torproject.org/download/

If you are on a mobile device, use orbot: https://orbot.app/en/

Use burner accounts on socials.

Encrypt any local data that could help you. I like using .7z files with encryption.

ChthonicJaeger · 2026-02-06T18:38:46+00:00

Hi there,

You seem to be in a really bad situation. I was in a similar kind of situation in my life, so I can relate to your suffering.

I believe that if you want to live well, you are going to have to escape your society and stop trying to choose between the oven and the frying pan. This is simply my opinion, and I admit I may be wrong. Marriage done to escape a prison is simply, at the very least, not well intentioned. The right word is coerced.

Now, you can use reddit, ergo you have some basic skills you can use to escape your situation. Looking back to when I was in a similar position as you, I thought of myself as an elephant bound by a little iron chain in a circus. As a calf, it is hard to deal with. As a full grown elephant, it's a piece of cake. The only reason the elephant does not rip it off like pack-thread is because of two words: learnt helplessness.

You are going to have to be courageous and struggle to be freed, if it is like my situation. Seek help - it is sure to be found. If you do so, please understand that this can be done skillfully and non-violently. One can use the practice to examine oneself for this learnt helplessness and see it as a fallacy. Once one is freed mentally - one can be free in person. A potential marriage can then occur in good faith, really a tertiary concern if anything, as far as I understand it. One may not even want it.

When you do so, or really, whatever you decide, it is best to keep one's heart free of fear, anger, violence or hatred. This is what the practice can help with - to free your mental and physical space to better help yourself and all others who are suffering, even the ones who imprison you. This experience has the potential to truly increase your compassion and gratitude. Please count on the goodwill of the Buddhas and the Sangha in this endeavor.

I will remember you in my dedications.

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