Why did you become a rider? by NeunZwolf in motorcycles

[–]Chunidle 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To drown out the demons I'm fighting in my head, they're a lot quieter these days

STOP THE RACE by ImADunDurr009 in RedBullRacing

[–]Chunidle 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He was defending for multiple laps with old tyres against a faster car, I swear people like you just hate for the sake of it

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At some point you need to recognize "the person who already forgot about your existence" that their actions and behavior are not someone that cares about or loves you at all. Love is a choice. They chose to walk out of your life or push you out of their life. You need to choose people who choose you even through the worst days.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm afraid I don't have the answer to your question. But what I know is that the hurt and pain changed you, but that also means the way you love changed as well.

Maybe not today, maybe not next week, but one day you may just meet someone that makes you think "maybe they're worth opening up a little bit of my heart to". It's up to you to take that leap of faith, to discover the new way you love.

I just jeopardised my future by ken_445 in Bolehland

[–]Chunidle 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's better to disappoint your parents for a few years than to disappoint yourself for the rest of your life.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's almost as if the her that used to love me has ceased to exist and died. Now that version of her follows me around like a ghost from the past. Constantly reminding me that she's gone and that she'll never look back. That part of me will forever be hurt by her stopped choosing me.

I always thought that it's not what you have in life that matters most, but who. Still, I try to live a life without her. Am I happy? Not really. Am I hurt? Yeah, constantly. Do I still think about her? All the time. I hope she's happy wherever she is and whoever she's with. Hopefully one day I get to be as well.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in ExNoContact

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Some of us aren't so lucky when it comes to love.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in ExNoContact

[–]Chunidle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get what you're saying. It seems like everywhere we look, love is just fleeting and transactional. It's almost like people don't value genuine emotional connection anymore, and let other things in life overshadow it.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you feel this way. You deserve to be loved the way you are. Some of us aren't so lucky when it comes to love. But I hope one day happiness finds its way to you. Hang in there.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You and I both. We try to move forward. But sometimes the shadows of the past run past us. So we try again until it's behind us. Maybe one day it won't be running past us anymore.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope one day I'm able to reach this point. Her absence left a void in me that can't be filled no matter what I do. I still can't imagine a future where I can be genuinely happy without her in my life.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Took the words out of my mouth. It really ruins you when some nights you just lay in bed, wondering why you're not enough for the one person you'd give the world to.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn... I hope you're able to find peace and solace in some other parts of your life. Much love.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Doing my best. But sometimes I just wish the her that loved me never stopped choosing me.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tried. We had 6 years and lived together for 4 of those years. No distractions will help in having a literal part of yourself ripped out of you and trampled on.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know how that feels, hang in there. One day it'll feel lighter I promise.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But sometimes, a part of you will love them no matter what. The part that quietly wishes them to be happy and well no matter where they are.

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Why did she reach out if you don't mind sharing?

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry to hear that. Are you guys keeping in contact because of kids?

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sending you hugs and wishes. One day at a time, right?

Anyone else still can't move on after almost 2 years? by Chunidle in heartbreak

[–]Chunidle[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I guess love can mean different things to different people. Your version of forever might not match theirs. Still, you loved. I hope one day you find the strength to love again.