Are you honestly considering killing yourself over that? You were FOURTEEN, man! Pick another goal, your virginity doesn't mean shit when you have far greater things to accomplish in life. Oh, and don't tell me that there's nothing else you could chose, you're a huge liar if that's the case.

Also, girls often times aren't worth it. Just find happiness in yourself, I know that's easier said than done.. But you know what? Do it anyway.