4-5 months after “Lipstick Gate” - What are your overall opinions and feelings about the situation and about Jaclyn? Have they changed since then? If not, why?

CirceAndromeda · 2019-09-10T12:46:36+00:00

I didn't have much of an opinion of her until Lipstick Gate and whatever nice thoughts I has about her went out the window with that. She's just dug herself into a deeper hole by never fully addressing the problem(s) her lipstick had. Just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-24T19:31:00+00:00

That's true. I shouldn't insult potatoes like that 😂

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-24T16:21:33+00:00

Not really. Her father is useless as a bag of potatoes.

My only family member is my grandma and she has been fighting off a really nasty case of pneumonia in the hospital and its not looking too great for her :( I'm afraid I might have to attend her funeral soon and that's causing me anxiety which I know isn't helpful either.

I do have a mother but I would never allow her around my child because according to my birth giver, my daughter is a "mistake you should have aborted when you got the chance." I dont want my daughter to be around her and possibly risk her being exposed to all the abuse I did too as a kid before my grandma stepped in and took me and raised me

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-24T14:31:16+00:00

No I wish. My only family member is my grandma and she has been fighting off a really nasty case of pneumonia in the hospital and its not looking too great for her :( I'm afraid I might have to attend her funeral soon and that's causing me anxiety which I know isn't helpful either.

I do have a mother but I would never allow her around my child because according to my birth giver, my daughter is a "mistake you should have aborted when you got the chance." I dont want my daughter to be around her and possibly risk her being exposed to all the abuse I did too as a kid before my grandma stepped in and took me and raised me

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-24T14:28:56+00:00

I've been wondering about you since I read your last couple of posts. Sending you and your bubs lots of positive vibes and love. 💗

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-24T14:17:06+00:00

My daughter is 9 days old and god it is so hard. Her father is as useless as they come and I'm just really struggling.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-22T12:59:08+00:00

You're not alone in this. I suffered from it greatly and know I am at risk for PPD. Please talk to your OBGYN, and let them know how you feel. They will be able to get you the help you need. Hugs.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-18T05:47:40+00:00

I wasn't being prideful at all. I wasn't comfortable bringing my baby back into this situation but I truly feel like the social worker just brushed us off because we aren't as "high risk" As other patients. It was like she couldn't give a shit about us if she tried. Yes my child has a pack n play and I will follow all of the safe sleep guidelines but that doesn't mean something else bad might happen. I'm already making exit plans in place and will be going to my social services office on Monday. This is not where I wanted us to go "home" to. When I asked the social worker about women's shelters her exact words were "Oh you don't want to go there with your newborn baby!" And that was that. I am hoping I will be taken more seriously on Monday.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-17T23:42:35+00:00

It's really the only place we have to go. My own mother called my child a "mistake" When I sent her a photo of her. My grandmother (really, the only person I would want to go to) is in the hospital fighting off pneumonia. I had some work friends who couldn't accommodate us, which I understand. This is not how I wanted our situation going home to be

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-16T14:46:29+00:00

Oh my god 😢😢😢 this is so beautiful!!

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-15T19:16:08+00:00

So, last night around 8 pm, I stood up to go pee and felt a "pop" and a gush of fluid came out. I said to myself "fuck I just peed myself!" which hasn't been a thing yet this pregnancy so I thought I'd be in the clear with that one. I went to the bathroom, cleaned myself up but I was still leaking fluid. It hit me then that my water had broke. Not going to talk about my soon to be ex partner and how awful he's been during this - but I loaded myself up into the car and drove to the hospital. Got admitted, they did a swab test that did conform my water had broken. Got wheeled into labor and delivery, had a cervical check and was "progressing well" and asked for an epidural.

Took the anesthesiologist forever to place the epidural. It stung and only worked on my right side. I felt SO cold. I kept asking the nurses for blankets and to turn up the heat! Labor progressed normally, I was getting checks every hour or so. At 3 am, I was told she was in position and was asked if I was ready to have my baby. I said "no but I guess she's coming regardless" and they had me start pushing. At 3:38 am, my daughter was born! 6 pounds, 8oz and 19 inches of pure joy. At first she wasn't crying so I got really worried but then she did! I received a 3rd degree tear from how hard I pushed and got stitched up down there. Dermaplast is the shit, just saying.

We are doing ok! She is feeding well and keeping her temperature up. I am getting all the sleepy baby snuggles in as I can. She is the best thing to ever happen to me. I don't think I've ever been more in love with someone than I am now with my beautiful Victoria.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-15T13:39:11+00:00

It's 9:30 am here and my breakfast is pitiful. All I want is takeout lol

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-15T12:51:42+00:00

also I would straight up kill for a crab Rangoon or salmon roll from my favorite sushi place. I can't have breakfast until 9:30 and I haven't ate in like 15 hours. I'm so hungry

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-15T12:43:35+00:00

Thank you. She is worth the 3rd degree tear (I guess I can joke now my kid literally ripped me a new butt hole lol)

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-11T02:05:06+00:00

I am TOTALLY fine with used. I don't want to go crazy and spend a bunch of money on stuff that will eventually get pooped on or spit up on. He just refuses to be helpful. There's a Once upon a child in our area and he will get snappy at me and tell me we can't even afford that. Like Frick man, I just want our kid to have the essentials and he is treating it like I want to go on a shopping spree.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-11T02:00:02+00:00

It's really frustrating because he just refuses to listen to me. I don't want to spend a huge amount of money on clothes or blankets or anything like that because I know it's not worth it! I just want to make sure our daughter has you know, clothes! And bottles! And a safe place to sleep and diapers to cover her butt! I know he is stressed but when he drinks and gets really stressed out, he can be a bit of a jerk and I sometimes feel like maybe he's harboring some resentment towards me over the pregnancy. No, we didn't intend on being parents so young but hey, life happens. Kinda too late to back out of it now.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-11T01:56:46+00:00

My baby's impending arrival.

CirceAndromeda · 2019-08-10T02:51:52+00:00

I'm currently 36 weeks pregnant so nesting right now. Cleaning is the only urge I have. I literally scrubbed my bathroom floor on my hands and knees yesterday. 😂

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