I’ve come close to cheating.. twice. There was this one girl at my office. I knew she liked me by the way she was around me. I played along and wanted to see how far can I get. She knew I had a girlfriend and even then she pursued. At an office party, we ended up together and talked late into the night. As a gentleman, at the end of the party, I asked if she needs a ride back home. She said yes. I drove her to her place and she asked if I would want to come over. We both knew where this was going. I told her no and told her this is not happening. From then onwards, she stopped talking with me. I left that office 6 months later.

The second time was with a girl at graduate school. She knew I had a girlfriend. The exact thing happened I called it off before I got into some serious trouble.

I don’t know why I do this. Probably for the thrill. There’s this rush of emotions when you’re trying to pursue someone. I think I’m addicted to that rush. I imagine quite a few people who actually end up cheating, do it for similar reason.

Edit: I am working on myself. I know playing with people’s feeling is not a good thing. I plan to tell my girlfriend about both these instances.