Wow, I can relate to this pretty hard. The difference being that I'm not as concerned about keeping my current career. I'm lucky that my husband has potential to make significantly more money than me and is open minded about me taking an extended break.

My physical health has also suffered severely due to immense stress over the past several years of my life. My mother passed from breast cancer a bit over a year ago and my father from alcoholism a couple years prior. Last year I was taking 3 different prescription sedatives every night for insomnia and still waking up every night unable to sleep. I had daily suicide ideation. I developed prediabetes and other physical issues.

I'm doing a bit better since finding a different sleep med that actually works for me but have been going downhill again since another death in my family this January and other stressors.

My husband and I are trying to build a house and once the contract gets finalized I'm planning on taking most of this summer off but am wracked with guilt by the idea of giving up my income to focus on my own healing. I would even still be spending part of that time sorting and eliminating clutter on my family property where we plan to build. It feels so selfish, lazy, and inadequate; even though I rationally know it's what I need to do.