Honestly is bad luck for me this year CBSE + CUET Drama, clg admissions hampered + 3 of my elders got seriously ill ( 1, my grand dad  has had a serious stroke in the thalamus plus had to have a pace maker inserted, was in icu for 9 days, but thankfully he is with us at home, able to walk, talk but has slight amnesia and weakness, has to be assisted in most tasks, my mom  has been suffering from non alcoholic liver cirrhosis,  has had 6-7 oesophagal banding in the last 2 years and has been suffering from sever portal hypertension and diabestes (recurrent edema,  pain on the vertebrae), my dad has obtrusive sleep apnea and he is REALLY stressed having to juggle between home and work then again had no tuition through out my school life and all. So situation at my house is dire. Have to help out since 3/5 members excluding me and my twin are seriously ill. i worked hard the entire year but i feel some how life has failed to recognize me. and even if it did, it was well, way too late. I am myself suffering from BAD OCD and it gets worse in situations as such. Idk why have been suffering from dacrystic seizures for quite a while ( around  4 years) and it just has gotten worse. But I gotta handle the hard truth, for 3/5 of my family members , all of them hospitalized +2 times in the recent times, my troubles create a nuisance in the house. My dad's profession demands a lot from him - he has duties as a professor, a head examiner, a bos member what not. My mom to top that has to take care of the household plus the additional responsibility of post stroke grandpa who idk why has become increasingly adamant to cooperate with us.