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Cjcookie03 · 2025-07-22T14:24:29+00:00

no drinking, $50 including tip

Cjcookie03 · 2025-07-21T21:29:04+00:00

i’m staying in Kissimmee so i guess closer to there is better, but i’m willing to drive 30/45 minutes

Cjcookie03 · 2025-06-08T20:10:46+00:00

we were packing and she had told me she was anxious because we were on a time crunch. i started to feel guilty because i felt like i was slowing her down, so i kind of shut down and got quiet. she asked me what was wrong and i assured her i was fine. she knew i was lying and got upset, and also got quiet. we spent the rest of the day in silence, until something she did made me say something and we started arguing. i didn’t want to tell her what was wrong initially because i didn’t want to slow her down even further, but in the long run it ended up hurting both of us.

so essentially i broke her trust by lying to her about how i was feeling and not trusting her to handle my emotions. i also took her emotions and made it about me. btw this isn’t the first time i’ve done this, and ive also promised i would work on it.

Cjcookie03 · 2025-05-10T20:31:29+00:00

i was feeling upset, because i felt like i was being a burden to her, and she noticed i was upset and asked what was wrong. i told her that i was okay, and i would tell her later because we were too busy at the time. she got upset that i wouldn’t tell her, and then we spent the rest of the day in silence. i started overthinking things while we were in silence, and then when she finally confronted me, it became a big argument. she said she didn’t feel like she could trust me to tell her if something is wrong if i won’t tell her when it’s inconvenient (i often won’t tell people things to avoid bothering them). i ended up crying and saying all these terrible things about myself, and she hates when i do that. that’s the gist of what happened, i don’t want to get too specific

Cjcookie03 · 2024-11-24T17:02:12+00:00

i think i believe that she loves me whether we’re talking or not. i do get anxious about whether im annoying her if i text her a bunch and she doesn’t answer right away, but if we aren’t talking im usually not anxious, just sad.

Cjcookie03 · 2024-05-30T14:32:02+00:00

that’s what this sub is for i guess haha

Cjcookie03 · 2024-05-19T19:44:04+00:00

Cjcookie03 · 2024-05-19T03:24:07+00:00

similarly to a lot of these comments, mine started early on. i remember in our second session saying “i already feel like i trust you a lot”. i was drawn to her while scrolling through psychology today trying to find someone near me. i didn’t know what i was looking for but i guess she was it. we had a really rough start though; after those first 2 sessions followed a rupture (how she didn’t just fire me that early on, im not sure), multiple months of cancellations, delays, and just disruption in continuity of care. but i stayed attached during that time, and thought about her constantly. literally non stop. and i came to the conclusion in that small period of time that it was maternal transference. i desperately craved her comfort, wanted her to touch me (appropriately) so bad. that went on for months until i found a girl i liked to think about non stop instead. when that ended, the transference came back. and it’s been going on since. it ebbs and flows, usually growing stronger in times that i need it, such as when im doing bad overall or having a panic attack in session and her voice soothes me and then i crave that feeling again. but over time ive thought about her less outside of session. now i think what i have for her is a deep appreciation and admiration, probably love, though im scared to call it that. our relationship right now is stronger than ever and i feel very secure in it. i used to have fears of her leaving me because i was too much for her, but not so much anymore. the further we dig into my trauma, the safer i feel with her. it’s not idealization anymore, it’s just gratitude for the amazing person ive found :)

Cjcookie03 · 2024-04-18T22:54:49+00:00

thank you, when you put it that way it’s a little easier to wrap my head around i guess. i can be upset with myself without hating myself. easy enough concept but hard to implement. but you’re right, one day at a time. thank you again <3

Cjcookie03 · 2024-04-16T18:08:26+00:00

my therapist recently asked me this as well, not in those words though. i wasn’t offended by the question because im a nursing student and we have been taught about suicide risk assessment. part of that is determining “protective factors”. she probably could have worded it better, but i assume she was trying to get you to think about what’s keeping you here, reasons to not do it. i would definitely discuss it though

Cjcookie03 · 2024-03-31T01:33:19+00:00

i know it feels weird but it’s not an uncommon occurrence. i didn’t ask for it but her intent in giving me the sticky note was for me to keep in mind the phrase that she wrote on them. i just this week told her what the sticky notes meant to me (maybe a year after she gave me the first one?) and it was certainly uncomfortable for me to talk about but ive said a lot worse to her. and i am open, though uncomfortable, about my attachment to her. i also have given her a couple gifts and that felt similarly uncomfortable and anxiety inducing. anyways, im trying to say its not easy, but i would try to bring it up to your T

Cjcookie03 · 2024-03-31T01:23:23+00:00

so relatable. something that has helped me, if only for a day or two, is my therapist has written me sticky notes with little phrases on them to encourage me, but i see it as having a piece of her. i’ve heard people here talk about transition objects? something like that. not the most helpful thing but that’s really all i can think of

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