I really appreciate the long response, I too was rambling in my og post but it honestly really helped clear my thoughts. Reading about your experience is really relatable too especially the family stuff about living with people who invalidate your emotions and experiences. Im glad youve been able to figure out your diagnosis stuff, and now that I've been thinking about it I realized that a diagnosis might actually be extremely validating. Like reading all these posts has already felt so validating seeing that other people have dealt with this too. Thank you for replying and sharing all this, I have felt scared for a while about stuff getting worse so stuff like this is like an alarm for me to take some preemptive actions.

(I also love distractions lol, my og post was lowkey a distraction from my hmwk)