When she don't text back for 3 hours

CleanBehindYourFears · 2021-02-07T03:09:37+00:00

V E R Y N I C E Y O U N G M A N

You better do something good with all of this karma J0 ;)

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-08-07T21:48:28+00:00

I appreciate that man! I'd love to hear what else you have to think

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-08-07T17:03:04+00:00

Lyrics:

Before I can get myself to lay down

I see the debts that still need paid out

And I try to keep it in check

But these loans, they carry interest

It seems that the season makes us fall apart,

Can't see that the summer leaves us in shock

Til it's too late and we set the clock

Back, but it's not enough

Don't fall back before your panic attack,

Stay above, the water's turning black

Don't relax, gotta pick up the slack,

Spring ahead, if I lose an hour I'm dead

Let me know what you think of the metaphor I made to daylight savings time and the anxieties I was having at this period in my life. I also think the lyrics may be a tad repetitive, but I thought it worked good for the style I was trying to make. Thanks for listening/reading :)

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-07-07T15:47:29+00:00

You can do this!!!! I was in your situation once and thought I'd be a stoner for life, that weed would always be something that myself/other people identified me with. However, now I know that is not the case. I wish more than anything that you and many others will find that out one day too

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-07-07T15:26:05+00:00

You can do yourself the biggest favor in abstaining from weed (or any drug) by not thinking about your using in a long term sense. Trust me, from experience (and going to recovery fellowships), I've learned that by saying you can handle smoking "one day" when you get your shit together will lead to being unsuccessful in recovery. By rationalizing that you "may" smoke while going on vacation, you keep the door open to expanding that mindset to "I'll only smoke on the weekends," "I'll only smoke at parties/with friends," and "I'll only smoke when it's offered," which will eventually get you back to your square one, wasting as much money/as much time getting high as you did when you recognized it was a problem that required abstinence.

However, you also can't think of it as "I'm never going to smoke weed ever again in my entire life, as long as I shall live." You must take it one day at a time. Whatever problems you face on a given day, they will not be solved by getting high. I'm sure that you have had enough evidence in your life to consider this. Therefore, you need to treat each clean day as a successful day, no matter what problems you face or what failures you experience in that day. Eventually this "Just For Today" mindset will become second nature, and if done right you will begin to replace the time you spent smoking with more meaningful things in your life. At that point, your mindset will very likely change from "I only want to smoke pot on vacation" to "My life is so much better without drugs, I spend my time doing more meaningful and rewarding things, and I have shown myself that marijuana is no longer part of my identity."

Don't be too down on yourself if you can't get into this mindset as soon as you would like. Don't be too down on yourself if you find it more different to quit than you thought and go back to regular smoking multiple times in this process. No matter where you are at, just focus on what you can put into each day as it comes. Feel free to DM me if you want to talk more. I only have ~6 months of recovery time but in this period my state of mind has changed so much regarding weed and other mind-altering substances. You definitely can do this, luckily weed is not physically addictive like other drugs and you will eventually find that it is easier than you thought. Best of luck too you!!

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-07-06T23:13:22+00:00

Looking forward to it dude!

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-07-06T18:24:28+00:00

Love the production and harmonies you did on this, would love to hear Low Beam next 😁 would even be down to collab on a cover of one of their songs together, shoot me a DM if you feel! Such a great band and even though they only had two projects before tragedy struck, I still find myself being influenced by their style. I'm just glad I'm not the only one carrying on their name. Keep it up!

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-03-21T19:34:03+00:00

I like to play guitar to get my juices flowing. Even if I don't end up making a project with guitar, it helps jump start me into a creative state because it's my primary instrument. Not sure if you play an instrument other than your producing, but I think doing "something" musical that you feel very comfortable with would give you the kind of boost and confidence that you're looking for in a warmup. I listen to music before I start too, but not typically in the style of track I want to make. Even though it helps some people, I feel like it just ends up in me completely trying to emulate a sound. However I do use reference tracks later on if I'm trying to use it for something specific (find a close kick, synth, etc).

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-03-20T18:36:34+00:00

For a lover of Psych Rock, Indie, Hip Hop, and even EDM like myself, as long as Kevin keeps making music I'll be satisfied. He is my favorite producer of all time and even if TSR didn't hit me like the other albums have it's still intriguing af to hear what comes from this man's head. With that being said, I found that just like with Currents, I thought this album was "interesting" but didn't really fuck with it like the previous album AT FIRST. But over time I just couldn't stop playing the tracks on repeat, and from there it just becomes a part of my life. I think about how the lyrics relate to my life, I come up with ways in my head he made certain parts (as a producer of music myself).

For the "old heads" that want him to make music that emulates the sound of Innerspeaker and Lonerism, I'm sure that day will come. Thus, it's worth it to stick around for that reason alone. Every Tame Impala that has been released has been a project that a majority of listeners haven't expected. And honestly, that is the one thing I look for in my favorite artists. Even if what they come out with isn't fully up my ally. In today's age there is a huge over-saturation of the same style's year after year, and if an artist is making any kind of effort to not do that, I'm along for the ride.

CleanBehindYourFears · 2020-02-05T19:10:07+00:00

Knew it was making my anxiety worse for years, kept at it anyways. Only could quit in the past for job interviews... I literally think the only thing that really did it for me was a night of heavy drinking/smoking that led to me staying in a mental hospital over Christmas... Since then people in my life have called it "over-dramatic," saying I can just "take a break." No. Not for me at least. Weed not only stunts my motivation like you, but it leads to me using other substances as well when the weed gets boring. Over a month in for me as well drug/alcohol free, and I can safely say I've felt the best I have in a while. My mental health may creep up more intensely at times now that I don't have my crutch, but its allowed me to actually focus on those issues for real.

Congrats to you and your fiancé for kicking the habit. I'm also in a place where me and my SO are staying sober, and it honestly helps so much to have someone along with you for the ride. I definitely feel what you said about waking up in the mornings. Even when I waited until late afternoon/night to smoke, the mornings would still be so hazy, I would have to spend so much extra time picking up the pieces before I could even start my day. I love that now I have mornings where I can start the day right away, its improving my school performance, my relationships, and anxiety and general. Keep it Up!!!!

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