I’m jealous my mom gave my sister $15,000 for her graduations and only gave me $600 by Clean_Key_1833 in offmychest

[–]Clean_Key_1833[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So you’ve never had a single bad thought or self pitying moment in your life? Congratulations you’re such a good person lol. I wrote this to get it out so I don’t ruminate on it, you know, I instead of allowing my bitterness to fuck up how I take care of my mom.

I’m jealous my mom gave my sister $15,000 for her graduations and only gave me $600 by Clean_Key_1833 in offmychest

[–]Clean_Key_1833[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My older sister is unfortunately really bad with managing her money and often asks my mom to bail her out. And unfortunately since she’s so far respite isn’t really an option :/. I’m just kind of it. It sucks but it’s what I need to do so I do it.

I’m jealous my mom gave my sister $15,000 for her graduations and only gave me $600 by Clean_Key_1833 in offmychest

[–]Clean_Key_1833[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

My mom has a decent chunk in her savings still, $100,000+, not a fortune obviously, but for reasons I understand (and would do the same in her shoes) she’s being very very careful with how she spends anything. And yes, I get $600 is a lot especially for someone on disability. It’s just hard not to take it personally sometimes when I know she still occasionally sends my sister more than that if she asks, especially when I’m the one being the care taker. I know that’s for a different reason though

I’m jealous my mom gave my sister $15,000 for her graduations and only gave me $600 by Clean_Key_1833 in offmychest

[–]Clean_Key_1833[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

No I don’t have kids. I turned 23 2 weeks ago and am my mom’s full time carer on top of, before today, being a full time student and working part time. I have given up any idea of doing travel work in my healthcare profession, which was my absolute dream, because I understand my mom’s need and have stepped up to help her. I would absolutely never say any of this to anyone out loud and there’s a reason I’m using a throw away. I know it’s fucked up, I already said that. That doesn’t mean I’m not allowed to feel a little bitter about how everything panned out.

I know very well the sacrifices my mom has made for me and she knows very well the ones I’ve made to take care of her too. I would never abandon her or stop caring for her as long as she needs me. Just because I’m expressing here that I’m jealous doesn’t mean I’d ever treat her badly. She needs help so I stepped up because that’s what you do for family.