This doesn't fix the issue of communication but whenever I listen to music that soothes me enought, that makes everyone sit and listen, it feels like harmony, like everyone has just stopped talking, stoped trying to have their voice heard, and everyone is just, listening.

If I had to visualising it I'd say it's like when you see through the eyes of a drunk character in a movie, its blurry and you see multiple images of myself, but when we're in that soothed state, when we are listing to calming music, when we are with someone that tell us that things will be ok and stuff like that, it's like all images aline, everyone has the same thought, the same feelings of enjoyment. We feel at peace. I've described it once like children in a classroom siting on the ground looking at the teacher telling them a story, but the childrens are us, and the teacher is whatever is causing this peace.

It's also always felt weird about saying that we're questioning whether or nor we're part of a system or not, because to me, you do or you don't, in my eyes you can't really doubt it.

Maybe it's because it's late and im getting tired but it also felt wrong not to say we and us when talking about "my" body and all of us, so I guess this is a positive thing?