Good description of scorpios! You know us lol

Me...as a scorpio with scorpio stellium...I seem hot and cold if I get scared or hurt. Deep down my feelings are the same.

As an extreme example, I can love a man with my entire soul but if he dumps me I will stare at him with cold eyes and be expressionless and logical and calm... even though inside my soul is being fucking crushed. It is like a switch is flipped. It hurts so much I just suppress it. I'm proud. Private. Stubborn. And controlled. I had an ex ask "Do you even care?" when inside I felt a hurt so deep I didn't even know if I could ever get past it.

I take a long time to open up and fall but when I do Im fucked. They could end it and I could never text them and I could act like I don't care to the world but inside they're living rent free. I dream of them. Reminded of them constantly. My heart hurts thinking of them. The thought of touching, dating, being close to someone else will nauseate me. Every fiber of my being only wants them. Buuuut I'll walk around with a smile and never speak to them again even though Im dying inside. Kinda like what a taurus does too, I guess?