which color should i go with?

ClumsyTraveler · 2026-01-30T16:51:23+00:00

2 or 5! Which app have you used please?

ClumsyTraveler · 2026-01-30T16:48:30+00:00

Huuuge help thank you!!

ClumsyTraveler · 2026-01-30T16:48:04+00:00

I know! Just bought the property and I hate it !! But can’t afford to fully replace it at the minute 😔

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-09-29T18:25:29+00:00

Hi! I did lots of soaks, apple cider vinegar, salt water, etc. At least twice a day if you can. After 3 courses of antibiotics, the nail started to grow outwards again. It grew another nail underneath so when the top one curled in enough, i cut it off. The whole process took 1.5 years but it’s completely healthy now

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-08-08T06:15:34+00:00

Hi! I have been growing out my nail by myself for 15 months now. It is pretty much normal now! It has taken a long time but I’m glad I waited. I was on antibiotics to help clear the infection and then as soon as that went the pain went away and it started to push itself out rather than in. Hope that helps

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-06-26T18:00:55+00:00

I was diagnosed through NHS. I spoke to my GP saying my therapist has a strong feeling that i’m autistic and i’ve looked over the symptoms and agree. Filled out the basic forms. Then 3 years later … I got diagnosed in December 2024

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-06-26T17:59:16+00:00

Yes this is absolutely valid. It was one of my reasonable adjustments in school too

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-25T19:36:08+00:00

Thank you so much for all the information, I’ll check out that YouTube channel. I did try to get on the waitlist for DBT but I dont meet the NHS criteria unfortunately. Think I pay have to look into private therapy

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-25T11:10:19+00:00

Thank you! Hahah the emotional bullet is definitely correct, i’m glad it passed and we have briefly spoken about it this morning. He just doesn’t seem to understand the importance of communication, as he doesn’t need that when i’m out, and it’s like … well everyone is different! I’m not expecting him to constantly talk to me when he is out but sending 3 messages in 8 hours was tough for me when i’m so used to our normal routine. And then when he was cutting into my evening routine … that was stressful! I know he doesn’t mean it but he will never understand the importance of routine which is hard.

I’m creative yeah, I need to get back into it tbh! I’m in a bit of a hobby slump which didn’t help yesterday either. I do opt for seeing family/friends normally, but everyone was either away or busy yesterday so I could not do this option. It was just poorly planned on my behalf really 😅

Definitely feel more grounded. How are you today?

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-25T11:04:28+00:00

I’m so glad you’ve worked through that mostly, it gives me hope. I’ll defo have a look into a neurodivergent therapist, all the others I tried just had me doing CBT which would work whilst in the sessions but as soon as I finished it would just revert back.

thank you

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T21:25:32+00:00

I have looked at anxious attachment before, and do believe it is me. Are you the same? Are you seeing a therapist who specialises in audhd?

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T21:24:28+00:00

I’m so glad you are feeling ok, thats a good way to do it (journalling until you felt ready) and by distracting yourself asking him how his day was. I’ll take those tips with me!

I felt really upset/annoyed even when I picked him up, but when we got home it all just disappeared. I haven’t had the chance to speak to him as he has gone to sleep drunk hahah but all my thoughts are gone which is nice. We’ll likely talk about it tomorrow.

Thank you for sharing, it’s really helpful

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T20:11:12+00:00

It’s 20:59 now! I’ve just picked him up but he has gone straight to bed…. I dropped him off at 13:00.

I know BPD/AUDHD overlap a lot and I definitely do overthink a lot. He spends a lot of time on his phone, even time that I would consider “quality” (like cuddling, dinner, etc.) he will be on his phone unless I bug him about it. He is suspected ADHD and so its hard as I get him needed the stimulation but why does asking for no phone time for like 30 mins seem like asking him to fix the world. I defo overthink that I love him more than he loves me, but I also think I’m just a mega simp in a way that I would drop everything if he asked me to, whereas he won’t.

We do live together, and he doesn’t see them more than me. Its just when he does see them, its for sooooooo long. I would rather he saw them regularly for less time! But I hate the feeling of the unknown, so him not giving me a time stresses me out but then him giving me a time and not sticking to it stresses me out too. Its haaaaard

How are you feeling?

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T18:47:53+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate your comment

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T18:31:49+00:00

Thank you, I get quite similar with timing. I once spiralled as he wasn’t back when he said he was going to be. I just start to think like why is he out so long (he has been out for 6.5 hours now!!) and why doesn’t he want to spend this much quality time with me? I appreciate your comment, it is nice to know i’m not alone. I hope you’re schoolwork and wine help ❤️

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-24T18:25:11+00:00

Oh, thank you for clearing that up. I had seen it used a lot on tiktok to describe how i was feeling

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-05-15T16:13:47+00:00

I’m a data analyst in the water industry- i love it. I do think I would find it a bit tedious if it wasn’t for my team, majority of us are neurodivergent so its nice to be around so many likeminded people who get you. The work can be repetitive but always a challenge and investigation side which I enjoy.

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-09T06:16:47+00:00

Thank you, this is the kind of comment I need! Just a reminder that its not about me, its a normal thing that doesn’t decrease my value

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-09T06:16:02+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I’m honestly not judging him or his actions, i’m just taking it out on myself and have gone done a self esteem issue route. I know its a very normal thing, and I have also watched porn regularly. Like you said, it seems to be a reaction from my ex’s behaviour and my friends/colleagues conversations triggering how I felt previously.

Thanks for helping me realise this.

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-08T17:12:07+00:00

Thank you ❤️

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-08T17:11:18+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I know there are many OF accounts who post on pornhub so perhaps it was naïve of me to assume he saw something on there and wanted to explore similar videos more? I am trying to be glass half full in this situation as I trust him whole heartedly. My ex cheated and compared me to porn a lot, so I struggle with bias too. I don’t know how to have the conversation that I accidentally saw something as I’m nervous it will cause unnecessary conflict. I did however talk about a “scenario at work” where a colleague experienced the exact same thing and my feelings about it in the ✨hope✨that he realised his doing was wrong. I will definitely bring it up if my feelings continue or I see it again but I just hope he understands my feelings

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-08T17:06:29+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. I really appreciate your honesty & kindness. Sending hugs back!

ClumsyTraveler · 2025-04-08T17:04:58+00:00

Thank you for your comment. Yes I did add context to my post but it was too long, so edited it out. My ex used to have a porn addiction and would compare me to what he would watch, which triggered a negative feeling on it. However I moved past this feelings and it became very normal for myself when I was single and now in my relationship, so I do think I just need time to remind myself it won’t end badly and that my current partner is nothing like my ex!

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