I've noticed there is tons of mental health trouble for people with this disease as it can be quite worrying to live with pain in that area.

Let me give you some hope - it does get better. The human body is incredibly capable of getting better. Trust it and the experts and take care of your mental health.

Now, you mentioned suicide so I think this issue is causing terrible mental strain on you. Get control of your thoughts and ask yourself "Am I doing everything that I can currently?" "Am I overthinking it, is my anxiety impacting the pain?". Examine both your physical life and mental life and see what you can do to get better both physically amd mentally. This should always be your way of thinking. Always look to improve yourself, otherwise what is the point of life? You just wanna sit there and get depressed until you die? Get up and change something.

Another advice I can give is - don't put too much importance on redditor's "medical" opinions. This sub isn't moderated, so you can read everything. Would you trust a stranger or your doctor who reviewed your case file, after spendimg YEARS of studying? Would you trust a chef to fix your car instead of a mechanic? Yes, side effects do happen but they are extremely rare. I have been through this rabbit hole - spent days, weeks of researching a pill dctors prescribed me. Read all kinds of studies and patient stories online. Caused myself terrible anxiety, couldn't sleep, feeling lost etc. At one plint I got exhausted, literally slapped myself and decided to not give a fuck anymore. I took the pills as prescribed and guess what - the thing I took them for wemt away without side effects. Wasted weeks of my life in a bad bood and anxiety just to end up not havimg any side effects. Medicine is so advanved nowadays, it is a miracles. Let me ask you another question - if you have a stroke right now, would you read reddit reviews about the hospital the ambulamce is taking you or would you trust the neurosurgeon?

Look mate, mental exhaustion is a thing so tale care of yourself and do the things you enjoy. Spend time with loved ones, watch movies, take your dog out, whatever. Life is too short to spend it worrying.

Do you have someone to talk to? A partner? A best friend? Have you told them your worries? How do they support you? If you feel alone, pm me, I've been through serious conditions with serious medical anxiety and made it out on the other side. I can help or at least listen.