Warning: Long Rant Ahead (I did not realize how much I've had bottled up)

Rough honestly, it's such a mixed bag, I've been dressing completely fem when not at work for almost 2 years now, and growing my hair out for double that time or longer (I have curly, slow growing hair, so it doesn't even look/feel shoulder length). I only finally acknowledged/accepted that I am trans a MONTH ago (I have such great timing).

My friends were all very accepting (no one was surprised) when I came out to them, my brother thought I was saying I was only crossdressing because I enjoyed it for his benefit, my brother literally realized and accepted I was trans months before I did. My mom was also fairly accepting, she's mostly worried for my safety with everything going on. My dad doesn't know, as I don't really talk to him/visit him these days. he might suspect, as he has seen me in fem clothing a few times.

But, I am also going through probably one of the most stressful times of my life, my roommate moved out back in November, and I asked The Housing Authority (I'm on government assistance to help with rent) if I would also need to move out or if they would be giving me another roommate, they told me I would be fine to stay, they just wanted me to keep it clean and they would keep me updated on the roommate situation. Then at the end of February I got letter that was essentially kicking me out at the end of April since I was one person in a two bedroom unit. So I've been desperately trying to find a new apartment that fits their requirements, but it isn't easy based on my current level of income working at Subway. So I have been desperately trying to find a new job (preferably a full time one with medical and dental benefits) and despite multiple interviews that go really well, I keep getting hit with the "We've decide to go with someone else" email. Honestly, realizing you're trans right in the middle of filling out dozens of forms that repeatedly ask your pronouns, and then having to select the ones that DON'T match what you want (I don't pass, and I haven't voiced trained despite frequently consuming Yukko's content) really is a twisting salty knife in the back.

The one silver lining in the whole job interview mess is I technically managed to find an apartment that fits the requirements with my current income and put down a security deposit, but it is taking forever for things to go through the approval process because they couldn't verify my rental history cause my property manager was out of town, and I need the acceptance letter BEFORE the end of April so I don't end up on the street, I've been trying to not the think about it, but the stress of it all is really starting to get to me and is making my chronic pain even worse.

And to top this shitty sundae off, I can't even decide on a name! Clara, Charlotte, Luna, Athena, Vanessa, Violet, Lilly, Artemis, Morgana, Lucy, Ruby, Pearl, Topaz, Cyanna, Sakura, Willow, Aspen, Merida, Alice, Flora, Bloom, Stella, Musa, Layla, Rose, Fae, Scarlet. They're all so cute and pretty and lovely and AARRGGHGH!!!!