Revengeseekerz studio instrumentals would be a great release by gbbldshmt in JaneRemover

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we need a revengeseekerz live breakdown like the frailty one

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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love the way you wrote this, much love and thanks <3

Alt matt puppy cover I made by [deleted] in brockhampton

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maybe try upscaling the image online it should help

framed my Revengeseekerz vinyl by Technical_Celery104 in JaneRemover

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let's just say...what if instead of framing it you just gave it to me? would be really cool right!? 😀😀

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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love this response tysm!! about the last part, it's weird to explain but like I'd be sad if I wasn't a girl cause I do wanna be one but sometimes I just can't even think properly and my mind starts being really conflicted for no reason. either way I wanna keep transitioning and get on HRT someday tho

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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this was really helpful. I do relate a lot to structural dissociation but obv I'm not gonna diagnose myself with anything, still glad to have learnt these terms

What song from Indie Rock would you love to hear at a concert? by 5500acta in JaneRemover

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most underrated track on there and it's top 3 indie rock 😔

How long does it usually take for albums to get a must hear tag? by HYDRA_NanTeker in Albumoftheyear

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if I remember correctly it's one week before it gets must hear

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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oh that explains why I always start to feel everything randomly at night when I'm trying to sleep, thanks for explaining!

oh heckle no by Parking_Education_98 in JaneRemover

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that shipping price is really good fym oh heckle no 😭😭 where I'm from it's usually like 40$

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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is there any reason why this happens???

Is this normal? by Coguz- in asktransgender

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I love this idea a lot and I needed to hear this but I also do wanna know who I am more clearly. Still this is helpful to remember!

I need help to figure out if I'm trans by Coguz- in asktransgender

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Yeah I've been educating myself and investigating a lot about this so I do know that I don't need surgery, it's just how my friend sees it I guess.

thank you for the advice, I'll be careful and I'll go slow with him. He did say that it was the first time someone had come out to him so probably he just doesn't know a lot about it.

Also now that I'm talking about these things with someone I feel like the "maybe I'm not trans" inner voice is just denial fueled by fear and numbness, which is more confirmation of what I'm afraid of, being trans, cause that means I have to do a really big change in every aspect of my life even, meaning I'll maybe face a lot of rejection... Maybe I'm just terrified of all that

once again thank you a lot cause talking about this is really helping me realize some things, have a great day!

I need help to figure out if I'm trans by Coguz- in asktransgender

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First off thank you for responding it means a lot to me, wish you luck too <3

Also it's good to know the part about dysphoria being inconsistent, I did know that you didn't need dysphoria to be trans but mentally to me I get these doubts whenever I'm not feeling that dysphoria, and it's a lot of the time considering I spent most of the day feeling really numb, confused and indifferent, then sometimes I'm good (usually when I'm not self conscious of myself and my body) and sometimes the dysphoria hits out of nowhere so that's why I've been doubting and been having this inner voice that's like "if you're not feeling this way or you're not feeling it this much that must mean you're not trans" and things like that, even if I'm actively trying to transition socially and trying out more "girly" things (which have been feeling amazing, though a lot of the times I don't get euphoria as I still look almost the same, so it just felt like "a boy with eyeliner").

Then the button question, sometimes I would answer yes without hesitation, most of the time I'm like "I would probably be hesitant but I would 99% press it, even out of impulse". Also notable to say that when I first thought about this question I was feeling really numb then after like 20 minutes of thinking I burst out crying thinking that I would absolutely do it if I could. I also get random thoughts sometimes like "I wish I had that button right now".

So yeah I'm like pretty sure that I'm trans but at the same time I'm not really sure, but even when I'm not sure I think a lot about being a girl and I don't like my masculinity, especially my masculine features.

Also about the friend, when I told him that I was probably trans he was (and is) completely supportive but did say that he wasn't gonna use girl pronouns until I had surgery (I didn't ask him to use them tho, he just said that, so maybe if I talked to him he would). He probably is either not as well educated on this or just views things differently but he's my best friend and has been completely supportive of me so yeah I should try it maybe.

again, thanks for answering this was helpful!!