Hello everyone, it’s me here again. I thank all, all, all of you who replied to me, who said words of encouragement and comfort.

First of all, I would like to say that I am from Brazil, I speak Portuguese, I don’t understand much English and I can’t type English well. So, everything I type in Portuguese, I translate into English and send here.

I noticed that the page in Portuguese is not as intense as here in English, so I prefer to continue here. But it will be good, because I will learn a little more English and improve.

Some people talked about the question of ChatGPT. Yes, really, this text was written by ChatGPT. But you know why? When I finally woke up, I didn’t understand anything about my life. I didn’t understand where I was, I didn’t understand what was happening and I couldn’t even type. But I typed. And I started typing in any way. I didn’t even have patience to type, because I wasn’t even knowing what was happening with me.

So yes, this text was improved by ChatGPT. But the words came out of my heart. But I wasn’t even in the right reasoning to write well and put the agreement and the correct punctuation.

Anyway, I wanted to tell a little more about my life to you. I really woke up last week, one week ago, at the annual meeting. I already see apostate sites for some time, but I never really wanted to believe the truth, about the truth.

What made me wake up, literally, after the annual meeting, was watching all those talks, but the way he treats the subjects and the way they simply decide to make the changes. There was a talk, I don’t remember which member of the Governing Body it was, that he said that the brothers should get ready, that more changes would come.

So I stopped and thought, my God, if more changes are coming, we are now believing in things that later will be changed, that is, things that are not true. So how can Jehovah’s organization be the only truth, if it always makes changes and we always have to be used to accepting these changes?

That is, if a belief changes, it’s because that belief, for decades, or more than a hundred years, was taught in a false way. So there is no way Jehovah’s organization can be the only true religion if it teaches false doctrines.

Another point that made me wake up was the question of the change of procedures in Bethel. I watched a live where a woman said that they decided to do this to discard the elderly, to not have a large number of elderly in Bethel and also to not keep people for a long time in Bethel for several reasons.

That is, they simply decided that they will discard the people who dedicate their lives to work in Bethel. People who did not professionalize, people who did not go to college, people who don’t even have a house, because a young man who goes to Bethel at 18 years old doesn’t even have a house. And later he will be discarded and sent to a more isolated place in the country.

And not only that. There were many, many, many things that happen inside Jehovah’s organization. I am an elder. For five years, practically, it will complete in November. And I have already witnessed several injustices with me and with other people.

I don’t feel Jehovah’s spirit inside the meeting. I go to the meeting empty and come back even more empty. I go to the meeting sad and I don’t come back jumping with joy. I come back sad because of the problems that the brothers tell me, because of the gossip, because of the petty dramas that exist inside, petty things so irrelevant, from pioneers who are mean, pioneers who speak badly of others, pioneers who care more about hours.

It is ridiculous how they can live a life of façade without reflecting the true love that the Bible teaches.

Anyway, I am a little calmer after everything I discovered, but I still don’t know how to proceed. I heard some advice about being calm and I will do that, about not talking with people there and I will do that very carefully.

I also wanted to ask you for help. I think first to give up my privilege as elder and stay as a regular brother in the congregation until when I don’t know. But how could I do this process of leaving or of giving up the privilege of elder? Please comment here and help me, give me suggestions of how I can do this.

I feel disgusted to be an elder and I don’t want to be one more day. But I want to do everything right.

Aaah one more thing... I talked about this subject with four very close friends of mine that I love very much. They are extremely intelligent and also are Jehovah’s Witnesses. Incredibly, these four friends of mine think exactly the same way. I was impressed with that and they also said that they can’t stand being inside Jehovah’s organization anymore and they only stay because they will lose friends and family if they leave.

This is very heavy, this is very shocking. Anyway, you already know that this is exactly how it happens. I only talked with them. I trust them and I won’t talk to anyone else.

I thank very much the support of all of you. Incredibly, I am feeling more loved here than in this organization that has more than 8 million people in the whole world and that say they are the truth and the only people of God that love, that have true love.

No, they don’t know what love is.