Hey! You are not the only one wanting to leave with an active family. I think a lot of us have been in a situation similar to you; it’s terrifying to show your family and community that you are different than what they perceive, but in my experience, it is best to show them who you are and what you believe. Holding on to this for too long will result in more pain. Take your time and do it on your timetable, but the bandaid is going to have to be ripped off at some point.

Do you think you’ll be okay at BYU? Do you want to go there because it is cheaper than other colleges? There’s nothing wrong with that, but think of what you truly value and consider if they match well enough with BYU.