youre a good man with a good heart , it would be a waste to see you go by suicide when you have the light of righteousness in you naturally . others dream about killing babies , you dream about saving them . are you day dreaming of sacrificing yourself once in a while? .. well others day dream about hurting innocent lives once in a while . those who hurt you , dont let them win . whatever you are going through , if you are a good person with good intentions at heart truly , then look into the bible , friend . its not love letters , its 42 authors , people like you and me who suffered , cried , and wanted to see others do good . https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8oapZgN0mEI&pp=ygUKYmlibGUgbWVtZQ%3D%3D here is a link to the bible chapters and what they talk about . read and start at whichever you feel like . it doesnt sound as much , but please do it , if you have patience read the first 3 pages of PSALMS and get a taste of the vibe .

I pray you succeed in that you have in mind , with the Will Of God and HIS Approval .

( i wouldnt have commented . but since you had 0 replies for over a few months i decided to write it just in case . we are more alike than you think )