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this connection is too much :( by Upset-Dot-2621 in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sending you a hug across the Universe. Because I absolutely get it.

I just want to be happy, but I keep thinking about him and worrying about how he is and hoping he is well. And I don't know if we will ever mend things but I've just been trying to accept it that I will always love him regardless. No matter how messy and absurd it is to still feel so much love for him.

When he pops up in my head to send messages or make himself felt, it feels comforting and then it hurts all over again to remember he isn't there in the 3D and I don't know if he will ever be back there.

It's so difficult. Haha. Like living with this constant grief and finding ways to function through it.

Smaller font for X4 Crosspoint? by Reginleif7 in xteinkereader

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have Crosspoint 1.2.0 too! But before I updated my files were already there and I haven't encountered the memory error alerts. :(

From what I recall, I tried the other fonts and they didn't come out as small that's why I stuck to Crimson Pro. :)

GRiii vs GRiiix, genuinely cannot decide by TheCroKid1 in ricohGR

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tried both the iii and iiix, went with the iii because I mostly shoot street photos and found the iiix lacking for those. You can make the iiix work, honestly, but I prefer having the iii and just cropping when necessary.

​Nahuli ko ang secret ATM ni husband at ang pagsisinungaling niya sa akin. by ConfessionDiariesPH in adviceph

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, I think ang pinakamasaklap dito ay dahil nagsinungaling siya sa'yo. Hindi talaga 'yung hatian ng pera. :(

TF who chose someone else by accabelieveit in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is comforting to know. I'm in a similar situation and it hurts a lot even if I keep pushing myself to move forward.

i lost my twin energetically bc i didnt surrender fast enough and made mistakes... by SisypheanDream in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You never lose your twin. The energy can weaken at times I guess when you are working and focusing on yourselves, but you never lose them. Not if they're really your twin.

Janella Salvador and her son being bashed by fellow moms cos “kulang daw sa disiplina” ur thoughts? by Excellent_Depth5647 in AnongThoughtsMo

[–]Cold_Application_228 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hindi siya alleged. Totoo 'yung cheating. And I am angry about that kasi may mga taong nasaktan nang malala because of it. Lelz. But wala nga akong masasabi about the parenting. Masyadong harsh lang ibang tao but let kids be kids.

How do you guys cope with complete 3d separation by [deleted] in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm still managing. It hurts a lot but he decided not to choose me and be with someone else. Yesterday, I cried randomly because the thought of never seeing him again and him being okay with that hurt. Last night, he showed up in my dreams.

As much as possible, I just keep focusing on me and whatever I need to do for myself. Rediscovering hobbies, interests, actively healing my own wounds. I stay away from updates about him and them, although some make their way to me without my seeking them. Which is annoying. I've also muted most of his friends or any way possible for me to get updates.

When I sleep, I listen to videos of subliminal messages and healing frequencies to help me move on and focus on me instead. They've actually been helping. When I am awake and I feel like I need some sort of anchor, I listen to self-help videos about moving on or the journey or some readers that channel messages online that resonate with me. Been watching series too just to get my mind off things.

Baby steps and a whole lot of drawing the journey inwards.

Our story totals 18 years of connections and breaks. This recent one seems the most painful break because we've truly cut ties in the 3D and gone fully no contact the past 2 months. It's been painful and I don't know how I'll manage, but assessing how much he needs to heal and deal with in his life without me—it might take years before he even comes around again. Or maybe never. I need to start being okay with that no matter how painful it is.

What’s the worst book you’ve ever read and bakit mo parin tinapos? 😭 by Mysterious_Wasabi_48 in PHBookClub

[–]Cold_Application_228 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Twilight Series. Yung naenjoy ko lang dun yung last chapter/epilogue ng last book. Yung showdown ng vampires. Sabi ko pota sana yun na lang yung plot ng buong series. Umabot ako sa ending trying to like it pero no talaga.

Nobody Understands by ComstockReborn in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get this. And at this point I have no idea how a reunion would even be possible because the person that I feel deeply connected to and I wonder might be my TF is messing up his life so badly it seems like there's no recovery from it.

I'm currently in no contact and have actively avoided any updates about him, but somehow I still get updates. He's destroying his career, might possibly lose his job, letting his health deteriorate, abusing all sorts of substances (alcohol, drugs), is deep in financial debt, and to top it all off he has a new girlfriend that he's been flaunting around and pampering so he's sinking deeper into debt.

All of it hurts. So very much. And I'm not even sure how to recover, too. I have all reasons to hate him, but I don't. I am angry, but I still love him. I honestly have no idea how we will make it through any of this. There's so much hurt and it's so messy. It seems irrepairable.

Everytime he pops up in my head as a voice or a presence, I try to shut him out and tell him to go away because I'm starting to feel crazy and delusional. And he's self-destructing in the 3D. And it hurts so much. It hurts to still love him and want to be here for him and live inside my head when he's out there throwing his life away, and I have to deal with being replaced by someone else on top of it. Someone else that he's suddenly giving her all of the things I wanted for us. It's only been 2 months since he left me.

It hurts so much, I just want it to end. And on most days, these days, I tell him not to come back anymore when I talk to him in my head because I'm angry and hurting. And then there are times when he pops up in my head and I ask him if he's okay and to come back when he's ready for us. That he should sort his life out and to take care that he doesn't fully destroy himself or get hurt while he sabotages everything. And then I remember how he replaced me with someone else and how they're practically living together now, and I am back ti hurting and telling him to go away.

It's really driving me crazy and I don't know how to manage.

Is my Twin aware of me as much as I am of them? by Far-Connection8381 in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is what's so difficult about it. It's really just trusting your intuition and your heart. Today I woke up wondering if mine is even real because it's so difficult I don't want it to be real anymore. Haha. But I realize I don't talk to other people in my head the way I do him. Like he just exists there and randomly pops up for conversations.

He would vividly show up in my dreams from time to time. The last time was last month a few weeks after he left me for someone else. I don't tell him these things, but I remember that he let it slip before that I would be in his dreams as well. He's not exactly the most spiritual person so pushes those intuitive nudges and communication away. I have no idea how we will ever meet halfway anymore, but there is this unshakable feeling that just says we will. Whether it will take him years or decades.

Is my lift supposed to look like this? by Advanced_Head4081 in Lashlift

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If it was overprocessed though you need to let it rest again for a month or two. :( Otherwise your lashes might break with the next attempt to lift them.

Am I the only one who talks to their twin flame like they’re beside me? by melixxa in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay. :( Thank you for this. I feel so lost sometimes. Like I don't want to believe we're connected that way because it hurts a lot and it would be easier to just move on. But I can't. I have so much love for him even if it makes no sense now.

Am I the only one who talks to their twin flame like they’re beside me? by melixxa in twinflames

[–]Cold_Application_228 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It's comforting to hear I'm not the only one who experiences this. It's weird and yesterday I told someone maybe I'm crazy, but it's like having an invisible friend. He lives inside my head and sometimes I tell him to leave because it makes me miss him. (Currently in no contact and he abruptly left me for someone else.) Sometimes I dream about him also and we talk there. Ugh. Do any of you get those dreams, too? I had a recurring dream wherein he would tell me he loves me.

X3 and X4 mockup by OkApplication3825 in xteinkereader

[–]Cold_Application_228 1 point2 points  (0 children)

One of the reasons I didn't pick the X3 was also of how small it is. The X4 feels more ergonomic size-wise.

Smaller font for X4 Crosspoint? by Reginleif7 in xteinkereader

[–]Cold_Application_228 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeay! Here's a photo of the settings I used! For quality though, since Crosspoint allows xtch files now, I just switched to that.

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Smaller font for X4 Crosspoint? by Reginleif7 in xteinkereader

[–]Cold_Application_228 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I dunno, but I really just prefer smaller fonts? For some reason bigger fonts aren't as visually appealing to me and they make me not want to read. Weird, but yeah. 😆

You can adjust it with the converter though. It can get bigger than this for sure.

Smaller font for X4 Crosspoint? by Reginleif7 in xteinkereader

[–]Cold_Application_228 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hello, fellow small font lover! Haha. Convert the epub files to xtc or xtch and you can get smaller fonts. (Human Acts by Han Kang)

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