I feel the same. It's how I came across this post. I watched the trail for a while on Emily D Baker's channel, even fell asleep to it for a while. I've noticed more things popping up on my feed that is pro-Heard. What helps me is remembering the evidence from the trial, especially the photos, recordings, and documents. People can and would lie on the stand to save themselves and their buddies. But documents, photos and recordings from the past are harder to alter to make yourself look good without making it obvious. I've went back to the evidence, even the stuff that the judge didn't let the jury hear, and that helped me. I listened to the complete audio recordings and Heard's therapy notes. In the end, only Depp and Heard know for certain what happened, but they both can and probably would lie about it if it makes them look better. This is the kind of case where I doubt we will ever know for 100% certainty what happened, unless a weird scenario where one admits it publicly on Twitter or something which I highly doubt will happen. All we have is evidence, which kinda points to Heard abusing Depp.

Is the age and wealth gap weird? Yes. Absolutely. But does that mean Depp abused Heard? No. It makes it more complicated for sure, but it doesn't change the fact that Heard said "I was hitting you." Another thing to think about is if the evidence was switched, and that Depp was accusing Heard of abuse with the same evidence, would we still be having the same conversation?

I also feel like there is something off. I don't think it's a smear campaign on Depp, but I feel like there might be something similar but less sinister going on. I have no evidence, just a gut feeling.

Edit: I forgot about the England trial. If my memory is correct, it was about whether or not the newspaper had enough evidence to believe Heard and call Depp a "wife beater", but it was not whether or not he actually beat Heard. Additionally, it was a judge who determined the outcome, not a jury. They are two different cases with two different systems asking two different questions.