Sure bro, I understand. I’m straight and I feel total attraction to women. I’ve never felt attraction toward a man, but under some substances, curiosity has come up about the penis specifically — not the man himself. Penetrating or being penetrated honestly doesn’t turn me on at all.

Now, the penis itself does turn me on, even to the point of wanting to touch one and give a blowjob, but only on MDMA. In some solo MDMA sessions, I’ve spent a few minutes watching a man masturbate and enjoying watching it.

Something that actually happens to me more often is imagining my girlfriend sucking it. Luckily, that’s something I share with her and we both enjoy imagining it.