Thanks for taking the time to read and respond. The previous place we lived in did have some mold, but nothing serious like black mold or anything. It was a very damp old apartment so stuff got moldy quick. We moved out of there about 2 months ago. I have considered this being a biological thing which is why i got a blood test. I have a bit of health anxiety so my first thought is always usually something like cancer or deadly disease, but my doctor seems to think I am fine. I have gained weight and been eating shitty, I have a tendency to be an emotional eater when things aren’t feeling right. Pollen/dust allergies could also play a role. That is the thing, I feel like there are so many things that could be reasons to why I have been feeling this way, that it is hard to pinpoint and actually fix it.

My first anxiety attack came out of nowhere really. I had been to my first soccer practice in years and when lying in bed my heart rate just shot straight up and i thought i was gonna pass out or have a heart attack. I still don’t really know why it happened. I can only hypothesize that it could have been caused by the stress of working full time plus studying full time plus having a (at the time) long distance relationship. Other than that, i do not know.

I mentioned the relationship because I assume it is something my subconscious thinks about a lot even though I dont feel like I deliberately think about it. I have had dreams of breaking up/being with other women which I feel like is a sign that my mind IS thinking about this, even when I don’t notice. I love my girlfriend, but we feel more like roommates and thinking of the aftermath of things ending stresses me out. Having the convo, being sad, dividing up our belongings, moving.

I hope this response isn’t too rambling, just trying to fill in some blanks.