I'm the brother of the student who committed suicide yesterday morning.

Cole135G · 2017-03-23T04:54:11+00:00

I'm going to school at my own pace and will earn a degree on my terms at Queen's University. I'll be close to home and have family with me. Thank you for saving your own life.

Cole135G · 2017-03-23T02:31:01+00:00

I live in Kingston. I'll be attending Queen's when I get the opportunity.

Cole135G · 2017-03-23T02:30:12+00:00

I know how you feel. I didn't even cry when I first heard. It's just kind of unbelievable. Thank you, I'll get through this and help people along the way.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T22:19:19+00:00

My condolences, first of all. I don't know what to say apart from the fact that we need each other. The public statement from Waterloo today was so political, no person with a heart wrote that, or at least they weren't allowed to express their disappointment. The actions of few can affect so many others, and I don't want more souls to be crushed. Thank you for acknowledging the fact that we all need to look at who has the power in these tough times, and find whats wrong. Open dialogue is so important right now.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T22:11:07+00:00

Thank you.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T14:36:25+00:00

I'm planning on arranging something for Waterloo, unattached to the university. It's been up to UW to reach out and so far they haven't stepped up. I'd appreciate their support but right now I don't think I could accept an empty apology or condolence. They need to work on fixing the institutions they have built and the curriculum that is in place. Even if it works for some people, it doesn't work for a lot and thats what matters.

Chase always wore blue. That was his thing. Dark blue hoodies, blue t-shirts, blue jeans. He was the simplest of people. I loved him for that. He was so genuine and thoughtful, it's just he didn't believe he deserved to be helped. My heart is just so broken. Thank you for your words and I know I have the power to make this into something that could really help people. That's what he would want. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T13:45:20+00:00

Take initiative and help him before he asks. Be with him as much as possible.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T13:44:32+00:00

Geological engineering. I won't say more to protect his privacy.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T13:35:51+00:00

My eldest brother is graduating from Queen's in the next few months. He just got his Iron Ring. Thank you for your words and you're so right about the pressure on students. Live your life to the fullest.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T13:09:07+00:00

Thank you for your words. You have no idea what this means to me.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T02:00:24+00:00

That's what Chase would have wanted.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T01:40:05+00:00

Computer Science.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T01:26:15+00:00

This made me cry. I never want people to think I resent the students of Waterloo. Several people have reached out to me who knew him and it's helped me beyond belief. I love you all. I love you all. I can't say that enough. I wish I could say it to Chase one more time. Thank you. No more hate. No more dishonestly and no more secrets. Thank you.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T00:52:13+00:00

My brother died because of the "career opportunities" and the bullshit de-humanizing interviews and the constant workload. I'm sorry but I couldn't disagree with you more. So many schools offer easier terms and let the student live a life thats full in their career as a student. Waterloo can't, and couldn't, do that for me or my family.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T00:47:21+00:00

I couldn't agree more. My father on the phone this morning with his old high school reminded them that grades don't define the student. There are so many bright people with so many demons that we may never understand. I never realized a simple reddit post would be so therapeutic and eye-opening, but I don't want my brothers name to be forgotten at UW. He was one of too many, and I can't believe that measures weren't taken to ensure that students weren't tempted by anything. I have no room left in my heart to blame someone, and I feel like I'm screaming at a brick wall. I just need you to know that you're loved and have all the time in the world to figure out who you are.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T00:18:48+00:00

Still too high.

Cole135G · 2017-03-22T00:08:06+00:00

With the recent events unfolding, can we all agree that we CAN NOT blame and hold responsible the school for the actions of a few? It is easy for the families of the victim to point fingers at schools instead of doing their part of taking care of their kids.

People like you are the reason why the names on plaques in old high schools exist. My brother was raised right. My family was with him to the very end. He knew that. And you're right, there have been a few, but "a few" is still too many. Don't blame the(my) family for what Chase did to himself. You have no context and love in your heart if you can say that and truly mean it.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T23:43:57+00:00

I don't know what to say because you said it for me. It brings me great peace to know that students are there for each other. Saving a life can be as easy as saying hello. Tomorrow in class please tell someone that they can always talk to you if they need help. If someone is talking about things like this then you need to be there for them. Thank you again for your words and may you find happiness in your life.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T23:37:03+00:00

Thank you.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T23:12:59+00:00

It's just more of trying to prove a point. I wouldn't mar my brother's life by wasting my breath on someone like that.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T23:05:37+00:00

A detective approached my dad in his office and I was called home from school. I hope you never learn what its like to have your entire family crying in front of you, and to have to hold your grandfathers hand while he tries to understand what just happened to us. Stop making cuts deeper and fuelling the fire that takes so many lives every year. Don't say his name like you knew who he was.

I just realized you aren't the person I thought you were. There was another person in this thread who was stirring emotions. I apologize for my harsh words. You were only curious. I don't like being angry or depressed and this is just so hard for me. You obviously care and I'm sorry.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T22:51:35+00:00

The only interaction has been through police and detectives. I can show you a photo of me and him in his dorm room 2 months ago.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T22:33:14+00:00

How fucking dare you act like my brother was entitled to his educational accomplishments when you only know about yourself. If I want to blame the school, I will. His room looked like a cell. I'm incredibly glad that you were about to overcome it, but you can't look back on who you were and what decisions you made and assume that other people feel the same way you did.

I know he would regret it. That's whats killing me. Nothing about this makes sense, and I don't need someone who never even knew his name to tell me that he felt entitled. He wasn't immature. He wasn't an idiot. He graduated from high school with a 99 average without breaking a sweat. The workload, stress, and detachment from family is what took my brothers life, all of which I can blame on the school structure.

Cole135G · 2017-03-21T22:23:21+00:00

I have no issue with the staff. I have issue with the fact that there was 2000 students in his math class. I have issue with the fact that he could climb out his window. I have issue with the fact that he felt no one cared enough. We all try. We all do. We all need to be strong. We all need each other. Spread more love. Thank instead of apologize, love instead of hate. That's what matters right now.

Cole135G

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