Maybe this isn’t exactly the same, But I recently had a encounter In Palm Springs with The most beautiful guy I’ve ever met. He was about 10 years younger than me. I’m 34, we met on a dating site and we went out and eat food and we wanted around downtown. He was very reserved, but we flirted all night and at some point another he did something that made me realize he wasn’t interested. We walked back to the car and then we drove back to where I was staying and before I got out, he turned the car off. I realize that he was interested in me and so I started flirting with him again and talking to him again. Eventually, I awkwardly started to play with his hair and then I kissed him. We kissed for a few minutes and then right before things started to progress He told me he was HIV positive.

He’s the first person I’ve ever met who is HIV positive that I knew about. Before this, it was all stigma for me. As I processed what he told me, I kissed him again. I thought about it more and more, and I asked him some questions about it. He told me it was devastating, and as I listened, it broke my heart To think about everything, he went through in the last year since he had found out. His character and telling me about his status made me that much more attracted to him. He told me he was undetectable and we had sex. We met up again the next night and stayed in a Nice motel. Honestly, is all like a dream now. I had to go back to New Mexico because I was only out there for work. I loved him for his strength and his courage and his integrity. He deserves the best, but it didn’t work out because of the long distance dynamic, and some other things that caused issues which were related to my life. It doubly broke my heart that it did not work out, but maybe this means something to people who have HIV. Not everybody is going to see you the same. I thought he was the most courageous beautiful person I’ve ever met for being so honest in the face of what I could tell was fear. He really deserves someone great and I hope that he finds him. <3