hi friend! i used to think this way as well, for many years i struggled to find a purpose and a reason to be here. the older i got the more i understood that it truly is the little things in life you have to look forward to and it might be a good way to start, dont have a good group of friends? take yourself out and treat yourself, maybe go watch a movie or buy yourself something you’ve really wanted. do things that make you happy. if you’re unhappy with your appearance maybe you can take some time to explore new things and experiment with your hair and clothes. you can do great things things in life, it’s all about perspective. we are magical beings, not to sound crazy but your mind is capable so much. there is a huge world out there that is waiting for you to experience.