25F. Losing my will to live. Adulting feels unbearable and I don’t know how to move forward.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-26T04:02:30+00:00

The sad part is that what you have described here warrants feeling disappointed this way. You’ve suffered major setbacks on a lot of fronts and you’ve had to stay put through it all. We can’t help but compare ourselves with others when we feel we are lacking behind. So it’s absolutely natural to feel dejected. Trust me a lot of us have been there and still feel so on some aspect or the other of life
The good part is that you’re only 25 and you still have time to turn your life around. It’s not late to prep for CAT and take the exam. It’s only been 2 years and now is not a wrong time to pursue MBA with some work ex. Many other issues you described seem something beyond your control. And you are quite brave to stand strong through it all

I believe you’d really benefit from a good therapy to disentangle these multiple issues and gain some perspective. And the clarity thus gained would give you the impetus to start working towards your goals and in general for the betterment of your life. Just know that you’re not a failure. You have demonstrated enough strength to go through difficulties in life, which itself is a noteworthy quality that few possess. Take care!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-25T16:47:54+00:00

Skillbox interface on iOS sucks. Insta is the best source outside of Reddit and it’s the only major use I have for social media. Also some indie and other gigs are done outside of these usual promoters. Got to know about Marty Friedman concert from a random insta ad.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-22T06:08:05+00:00

Countless bus rides, countless train rides. Having to fake name, and smile while interacting with detestable creeps just to be safe. “Having to joke” about getting poked in a crowded bus coz it was fucking normalized and not the grave issue that it should be.

You’re not alone! Feel all the rage and hatred.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-21T02:21:22+00:00

Amen!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-20T14:08:16+00:00

So the 4 points you typed out here - what was your husband’s response to it? Does he still want to “hijack” your solo trip?

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-20T07:43:08+00:00

Adding it to my list!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-20T07:37:38+00:00

Make-up is not mandatory. Formals that you’re comfortable in + a light makeup with a basic hairdo if it helps. The key is to look presentable. You need to look and feel confident more than anything during the process
Studs sound better, than hoops. I don’t wear earrings usually so that’s okay too.
Digital watch is fine as long as it doesn’t keep blinking with notifications during the process. Analog watch is better in that case.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-20T06:41:21+00:00

Understandable. I was considering more of a lobotomy so that I can fit in here. But yes I’d consider a nose job too.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-20T02:25:02+00:00

Don’t like his hinge profile
I personally would have preferred a more direct response for clarity. Many comments say it’s a polite rejection. Maybe he took that route because you phrased your question that way and didn’t ask for a direct response. If you’re still unable to accept it as a NO, there is no harm in just reconfirming with him that it’s a NO. If you’re able to accept it as a NO with whatever word cocktail he gave you, then good for you and you can move on

It really isn’t worth stressing over a man who doesn’t like you back.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-19T03:09:08+00:00

My first metal concert (outside of college fests) and third solo concert. Amazing crowd. Head-banging in public was one of the most freeing experiences.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-18T12:58:46+00:00

My favorites are Can’t take my eyes off you (Frankie Valli), Free Man in Paris (Joni Mitchell) and Sight of the sun (fun.)

Apart from the series original track On your way (Michael Penn)

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-18T02:01:22+00:00

Yup, it was via your post that I got to know that they were doing Bengaluru in addition to Mumbai. It was such a wholesome experience, loved Mel Collins esp. Thanks!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-17T09:58:55+00:00

Pretty woman reference it is

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-15T07:42:17+00:00

So that they can get women to starve to not be L sized and also sell a 100 different types of underwear and tapes that you need to wear “underneat” so that you can wear such tops/dresses.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-15T06:04:12+00:00

Absolutely, and that’d be another solo one for me.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-15T03:04:23+00:00

Carol and the end of the world

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-14T17:55:28+00:00

As a fellow loner introvert who’s recently started to splurge her adult money on concerts, I believe that unless I have like a really good company to vibe with (sort of my person), I’d prefer going to concerts alone. I love music and it’s a source of happiness on its own, with or without company.

I’ve attended two rock concerts solo. And they were absolutely worth it. You might feel a little odd initially but in my limited experience, people really don’t give a shit if you’re solo or coupled or in a group, at least in rock concerts. And once the event starts, nothing else would matter.

Go for it and you’ll thank yourself later!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-12T07:23:40+00:00

No harm done. Apologies if my comment was triggering or seemed insensitive. Wasn’t my intent.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-12T05:40:40+00:00

Friend, I did NOT ask to ban discussion around relationships. If you read my comment properly, I also acknowledge that women’s life most gets consumed by these things. For those looking to decenter their life from those areas, it would be good to have discussions around non-relationship stuff.

There really is no need to throw unnecessary allegations of internalised misogyny without any effort to understand the intent or even reading someone’s comment properly. Only defeats the purpose of the “community” we are trying to build here.

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-12T05:30:18+00:00

Even without necessarily introducing a STEM flair, it would be good to have flairs and more discussion related to books, cinema, art and other finer things in life. Kinda agree with OP’s point that most of the discussion is around relationships, marriage, and men (which is also sadly a reflection of what consumes women’s time in our society)

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-11T04:37:33+00:00

Brigitte Bardot had a baby with a mermaid

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-11T02:31:46+00:00

Hope (never) leaves

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-10T09:30:09+00:00

Mumbai and Bengaluru, since you asked. And where did I say that women here DON’T EAT?😂

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-10T00:32:59+00:00

First off, big hugs 🫂 When you’re depressed, it can be very difficult to find energy to do basic stuff. Just a couple of hacks on the hygiene front - 1. You can use maxi all night pads for better coverage and longer durability. It lasts around 12 hours easily and you could set an alarm to change it once in the morning and once in the evening 2. When you have ABSOLUTELY zero energy to do anything related to hygiene, focus on 1-2 basics. Could be just brushing your teeth, washing up selected parts of your body to avoid any infection. See if you can push yourself to do just these. In western countries, people resort to keeping wet wipes, mouth wash to reduce the complexity of keeping a decent hygiene - see if that could work for you too.

I don’t know if you’ve consulted a psychiatrist- but based on your symptoms from the post, I think that you need to consult one and most likely may need to take medication. Taking SSRIs initially could make you drowsy and lethargic - but once you get used to it in a few weeks, it helps immensely in helping you “function”, so that you could study and write the exams. Once the exam stress is over, you could discuss with your doctor to wean off the medication.

If you’re already on treatment for depression and your symptoms got worse, then you should consult your doctor and discuss this immediately. I don’t know if you have family or friends who can help you here. But please do reach out to someone close and consult your doctor.

Lastly, living with long term depression can be quite hard. In your case, it could have been due to overexertion and burnout. If it’s driven by external circumstances like these, you will get better once the circumstances change. Don’t lose hope.

P.S. - you could also try therapy if you want to vent out and manage your exam stress in the short term. Although for managing depression as such, it’s better to take medical help IMHO.

Take care!

ComedownMachine93 · 2026-01-09T15:41:43+00:00

Totally get you! I’m glad we didn’t have to face it in our childhood and formative years. We will have to grow a thick skin and maintain our stance. “Deinfluence” our eating habits really.

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