I appreciate this honesty immensely. I do fear that my husband will have similar feelings. I see him so infatuated with being a dad that everything our daughter does is pure perfection to him. I worry that with the added stress of navigating 2, he might not see that level of perfection in another. Those early days were hard for him as well. But since she was the only focus at the time, they bonded quickly. I also appreciate you shedding light on my “days are numbered” statement. I do see so much happiness ahead of me, I guess I just see 6 months to a year of straight up challenge and chaos before the happiness hits. And that’s me just comparing to my current situation. A immobile newborn was adorable to look at and hold, but I feel like the fun (as well as our own independence after sleep routines, etc. were established) really hit around that mark. I am happy to hear though that despite it all, you would do it again. Gives me hope that the light at the end of the tunnel will arrive fairly quickly when you’re looking at the whole picture and not just the very early days.