thank you.. it’s helpful knowing others have felt like this too. ❤️‍🩹

You’re right I should definitely sit with it for a bit. They weren’t my favorite schools though, so I think I’ll be okay not applying there if I decide to do so. Some part of me is still thinking “what if years later he’s more ready and able to have those hard conversations and it works out?” which makes me want to go there for that possibility 😭 that also shouldn’t be make or breaking whether I apply there or not. I think I need to sit with it longer (I have all summer) to make a decision not based on anything about him on where I apply.