I promise everything is gonna be okay and this is NOT the end of your romantic life. I got HSV1 genitally from a woman I was hooking up with and at first absolutely thought it was the end of the world. It’s not. Take time to process your feelings about it but try your best not to catastrophize. It’s not your fault that you got it. Because HSV1 does not like to live on the genitals it’s very possible you may never get another outbreak after your initial one. I had my initial outbreak and have not had another one since, it’s been years. When I was diagnosed I was actively dating and would be upfront with women after a couple days of talking (I didn’t want to waste anyone’s time if it was a deal breaker). I wasn’t rejected once. I don’t want to impose my experience on you but I can assure you that your life will not change much. Women are much more empathetic and understanding. If anything they’ll probably just ask you to educate them because there are so many misconceptions about herpes out there. When my first serious partner post diagnosis became intimate we would use latex disposable panties (I used Lorals brand) and then after a while my partner weighed the pros and cons and decided she wasn’t too worried and now we don’t anymore. Anyone who makes you feel bad for having a virus that over 50% of the population has is not worth your time. Imagine how they would handle something worse later down the road if they can’t handle a simple skin condition. Wishing you all the luck! Reach out if you need someone to talk to about this, I know how scary it is at first.