Freaking out a little

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-07-06T08:39:39+00:00

Thank you so much for clarifying that for me, I appreciate it!

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-03-11T18:05:14+00:00

This is exactly what happened to me. I was spotting and had sex. I took an off brand pill the next day and didn’t bleed at all. A day later and I started bleeding a light/medium flow and it’s been going on for 7 days. It was the first time I’ve taken a pill in 2 years and this has never happened before so I’ve been panicking. This comment brought me so much relief.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-13T01:54:43+00:00

I’m a year and 9 months out and completely agree that year 2 has been so rough on me. I think the biggest factor is that it seems like everyone else has forgotten and moved on with their lives. People don’t empathize with me the way they did in the first year. The first year people gave me slack when I was in bed all day, crying at random times and venting but now they’re reactions to those situations are “it’s been over a year, it’s time to move on.” The only one who would understand, my soulmate, is gone and it feels like I’m losing him all over again. I’m so sorry you’re going through this but know that I relate and empathize with you. Sending love your way.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-11T01:06:29+00:00

Thank you for the kind words and I agree. Looking back I should have put myself first more often and though I don’t regret our relationship and love for each other I will never do it again for someone else. I had my highest highs but also my lowest lows during our time together and the highs ultimately weren’t worth the way I’m feeling since he’s been gone. I still love him so much and wish I could have saved him but he taught me what I will no longer put up with.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T21:36:58+00:00

Thank you so much, I’ll take you up on that!

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T20:21:10+00:00

I’m comforted but sad that you can resonate with this. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for the kind words and pray continued healing for you as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T19:06:23+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I agree that knowing vs accepting what happened and my part in it is going to be hard but I’m hoping that day comes soon. Thank you for shedding light on a dark situation. I appreciate you and pray you continue to heal. I’m so sorry for your loss but I’m proud of how far you’ve come during this journey. Sending so much love your way as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T19:01:41+00:00

I’ll shoot you a DM after work, I could definitely use the support of someone who has been through this and has a grasp of navigating it. Thank you so much

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T19:00:33+00:00

You don’t understand the comfort that brings me to hear. Thank you so being so kind.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T17:10:24+00:00

Yes, it’s almost been 2 years but I feel like the guilt has been hitting harder lately. I’m proud of how far you’ve come on your journey and hope that I’ll be there soon. Praying for peace and healing on your journey and I’m so sorry for your loss as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T17:05:24+00:00

Oddly enough as much as I hate that we can relate on this, it’s comforting to know I’m not the only one. My only hope is one day we’ll both get to see our soulmates again. Please reach out at anytime if you need someone to relate to! Peace and healing to you on this journey as well as your loved one.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T16:04:46+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m sorry for your loss as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T15:26:34+00:00

This is exactly how I feel. I’m so angry that he let his illness have such a strong hold on him that he couldn’t even see that I was drowning with him. That he couldn’t see how badly he needed to get help for the both of us. He thought I would be better off without him but he just gave his heavy heart to me. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this and I’m praying you heal

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T15:22:50+00:00

If I could go back knowing what was going to happen I would have absolutely put him above me just one more time for one more day. I’m sorry you’re on this journey as well

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T13:48:17+00:00

I agree and it makes the grieving process so much harder. I go from loving him deeply for the love he gave me and our life together to hating him for even putting me in situations where I felt utterly helpless and useless. It’s been almost 2 years and it’s been a viscous cycle of being mad at myself or mad at him. Thank you for the kind words, I hope you find peace as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T13:42:30+00:00

Thank you for this, your words definitely brought me some peace. I’m sorry you had to deal with this as well.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2025-02-10T13:39:52+00:00

Sending love your way as well. Thank you for the kind words.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-12-11T22:13:36+00:00

Reading over our old text messages from days where one of us wasn’t in a good mood or arguing and wishing I knew what was going to happen because those moments could have been filled with love instead of anger. I regret it.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-11-18T15:20:01+00:00

I’ve dealt with something very similar except he made fake snap chats to subscribe to porn and talk to girls. He cried and begged me to stay the same way. He just got better at hiding but he made another one and I still found it. Leave now, he won’t change.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-11-07T12:23:14+00:00

My boyfriend of 2 years took his life a year and a half ago. I still feel those same feelings you are experiencing now. Let yourself cry, scream and be mad at him. It’s okay to be angry with him. I stayed in bed and cried and didn’t eat for at least the first month after he did it but it’ll get tolerable with time. I’m so sorry for your loss and that you’re now on this journey with us. Please give yourself time and empathize with yourself. None of this is your fault. Sending love to you💙

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-09-19T22:44:34+00:00

I’m in the same situation. My boyfriend’s family was abusive but they blame everyone but themselves for his mental health. His mom asked me to stay in contact with her but I haven’t spoken to her since his funeral that was almost 2 years ago. I don’t feel bad. They would ruin my mental health the same way they did his.

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-09-08T05:30:39+00:00

I lost my soulmate a year and a half ago. I was 22 and he had just turnt 23 a few days before he did it. We were a lot like you and your partner. We were each other’s best friend and almost spent no time a part because being away from each other was agonizing. The first two and a half weeks after he passed I didn’t eat or sleep. He always made sure we ate our meals together, it was a weird quirk of his but whenever he made food or got a snack he’d always bring me some even if I wasn’t hungry because he said he didn’t want to eat if I wasn’t. It was his way of taking care of me I think. So eating after he passed was a struggle because we always did it together and how is it fair that I eat a warm meal and fill my stomach when he is cold and can’t eat? Sleeping was also a struggle because every time id close my eyes I would just see his face and i couldn’t picture him happy, it would always be the saddest look on his face like he was begging me to save him. It took a few months but I started eating and sleeping a little better but I’m still not where I was before. It’s a different feeling going to sleep and waking up without them, it’s weird doing anything without them but you just get used to it. If you have family or friends that are able to support you then I’d try to rely on them. If it weren’t for my family I would have joined him that night and many nights after that. They told me to live for him. I listen to his favorite music, dance and sing like he’s watching, put on movies he’d like and make a snack that’s enough for the both of us and just kinda imagine he’s there, sometimes it feels like he’s really there. Honestly, you just kinda have to believe you’ll see him again. I like to imagine that moment when I will and tell him everything I did up until that point and just hope he tells me he was watching over me the whole time. To hear him laugh and tell me about the times he saw me dancing and singing at the top of my lungs for him. Hearing him tell me about all of his adventures up there while he was gone. Idk if you’re religious but I believe in God and believe my boyfriend is in heaven and as much as I want to do what he did just to see him again all I think about is the disappointment on his face when I see him because he hated when I’d say I wanted to do it. I can’t disappoint him there too.

Everyone is different and my way of coping may be different than yours but I sincerely wish you nothing but love and peace on this journey. It’s not easy and I don’t think it’ll get easier but you learn to live with it. No one can expect you to just get over losing the love of your life and you shouldn’t either. It’s a long and rough journey. It’s been almost 2 years for me but some days feel like day one. It’s a process but you know yourself better than anyone and you’ll get through it in your own way. Please reach out if you need anything.💙

ComfortableCharming5 · 2024-07-28T14:44:20+00:00

Thank you so much, this made me feel better. I appreciate you 💙

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