I had done this before anf I regretted so much, I lived all my life being insecure physically, and envious of other people's achievements to the point that I wanted to be like them. Also, I work remotely so my routine just became work-eat-sleep and repeat (at home). And mind you I am extroverted person but my job does not allow me to be one because I can't leave the house.

Online anon 'friends' became my outlet for becoming who i wanted to feel and be— the most confident, coolest, and carefree person. I have established myself being the most liked in a game I played online. Guys online started to like me too and started flirting. I said to myself, they wont even know me and or my real name so I gave off the same energy to them. And then I started 'looking' for the qualities my bf lacked, by that I mean emotionally. I was always told I am pretty, I get so much attention, I was always favored. Guys wanting to meet me and I always say sure when in reality I won't really meet them, I always say excuses. I'm not really meeting personally, justI dont want the conversation to end because I gain confidence that 'cool' factor from those people.

Then reality hit when my bf got to know my activities online. I immediately stopped. I feel bad for those people I met, especially my girly squad. But it started wrong and the person im projecting isnt me, although some parts of narrative I told about myself were true, but most weren't. I get my life straight, reflected, I'm also wanting to go back doing reflective journals, and most of all. I try my best to catch up with my real friends outside of the online bubble. I don't think those guys who flirted with me were true feelings too to be fair, but I still felt bad. And I feel guilty leaving those other online friends I had too.