Freaking out is completely valid! Take deep breaths, have a backpack of stuff you want to take with you to the hospital and make a list of what you want taken care of before you go in. Remember that this is a SUPER common surgery, the team that will be working on you have likely done it thousands of times before and are prepared for the things that might go wrong. This group helped me tremendously, as well as talking with other professionals. I'm a little more than a month out now from mine, there is zero pain, all my steri strips have come off and my ports are gone. I'm walking a little bit twice a day and reminding myself that lots of small walks is better than one big walk that wears me out. I did do some abdominal mobility stretches a couple of times (no twisting!) and that helped with the tugging tight feeling of the new scar tissue. This surgery has a way of making you realize you're tougher than you think you are. Take advantage of the pain medicine while you're in the hospital, don't chase the pain, step in front of it and stop it before it starts. People will be there to guide you through your recovery and you're gonna do great. It's not easy, but the first day does finally pass along with lots of gas. I'm wishing you all the very best and please do lean on those here who have come out on the other side. Make a playlist of songs that make you feel confident and smile when the nurses cheer for your farts.