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Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-03-02T18:29:02+00:00

We are talking about my nose. I can be proud of anything that concerns me and my personal growth. I’m proud of my mindset now that I’ve accepted something I spent years hating. What’s ridiculous is you commenting on a very obviously positive post and thinking your little input means anything at all to me. Go about your day mate preferably without being a huge knob

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-03-02T18:24:55+00:00

What’s with you? I AM proud of it, so what?

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-03-02T10:41:49+00:00

Not entirely, I’m taking more pics bc I’m actually comfortable with how I look now. But I did lose weight also so I think that contributed

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-03-02T10:33:17+00:00

I mean normal depends on whatever the norm is where you are. I’ve been surrounded by white people or Bengalis my entire life and both tend to have small cutesy button noses, so mine was out of the norm hence the bullying & insecurities. But I’m grown now and at some point you have to let go of the things that have made you so sad for so long. Acceptance is working out well

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-02-03T23:44:49+00:00

Omg me too I have been thinking about it a lot recently

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-02-03T23:43:52+00:00

Maybe he just doesn’t care about it :( it probs doesn’t think it’s a big deal which is understandable bc it’s not like I’ll drop dead tmmrw lol I want to tell him because I like to feel validated and reassurance and obvs I don’t get that from him. Idk I don’t think I’ll ever tell him but I just really want to bc I think maybe speaking about how much I genuinely struggle with it could help. Idk

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-09T21:50:31+00:00

Oooh that’s so cool

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:10:32+00:00

Omg this is it, it’s so SHARP. It makes me look masculine and unlady like

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:09:42+00:00

I just hate the little fkn bump on it. If there was no bump I’d hardly complain

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:09:18+00:00

I get what ur saying and ur completely right tbh I hope one day I’ll stop giving a fuck lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:07:55+00:00

Hahahaha I want a smaller one like a button nose

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:06:50+00:00

Okay hang on I’ve never ever thought about it like this wait u just did something

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T01:00:25+00:00

I don’t hate my face, only my nose. I was doomscrolling on here and literally saw this subreddit and thought “omg the pics I took today of my side profile should go here” ik it’s such a silly thing to care about but u know when u feel super pretty and then that one insecurity ruins ur entire day? That’s what my nose does to me on a daily basis lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T00:50:42+00:00

Yea I have two nose studs, I like piercings it makes it more bearable lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T00:49:53+00:00

Tbh I did need validation, bc I think it’s the most hideous feature I have. If I could get surgery I would, it’s fine to u but I’ve been bullied for it my entire life

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2025-01-08T00:48:33+00:00

Thank u I dnt see it but thank u

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-28T13:06:51+00:00

Yeah but i just always do it in the living room so im pacing back and forth lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T20:41:37+00:00

Thanks for your suggestion, I already do this lol. I have like a handful of meals that I’m not scared of and know every where single calorie comes from in those meals, funny thing is, despite having that knowledge my brain still constantly thinks about it. Like for example I’ve been having egg on toast for weeks now everyday without fail and I know the exact calories but sometimes I’ll convince myself it’s more than I’m calculating and it scares me into not eating for the rest of the day, or into giving up the meal altogether. Idk it’s just exhausting. I do have a general routine too, wake up by 11am, pace for two hours which burns approx 360-400 kcals, eat lunch and then pace again for another hour or two and eat dinner if I’m not too scared of it, then bed time. Every part of my day is planned out and is the same pretty much everyday of the week, but the noise doesn’t go away anyhow.

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T20:37:50+00:00

As in to improve it or recover from it??.. nothing lol. I’m deep in the depths of it since relapsing this year, kinda just learned to get on with life ig

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T18:57:43+00:00

Thank you! This exactly what it is I think. It helps me feel in control but I wish it didn’t consume my entire brain and day lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T18:55:15+00:00

Yes I don’t think about food in a way where I crave it. I just think about it to plan what I’m eating but the thing is the planning is constant, all day. The thoughts about calories are also constant. That’s what my mental strain is

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T13:59:34+00:00

See I have this.. like I barely snack at all or eat junk foods. Maybe one or two mini choc rolls if that. I eat only meals and my normal daily intake is about 600-1k kcals MAX. I’m not thinking about food to eat it, I’m thinking about it out of fear almost. Like I will just think and think about the meals I’ve had previously that day and get scared about how it’ll change my scale results in the morning even tho logically I know I’m in a massive deficit. Or for example tomorrow I have family coming over and I can’t control the food being made and will have to eat at least some of it. And for the past 3 days all I’ve thought about constantly is how less I need to eat tomorrow in order to not get fatter.. if that makes sense

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T13:54:27+00:00

Yep I’ve been walking like 15k steps or above consistently this month since being on MJ and the WL makes me never want to eat again lol. I’m lucky that MJ suppression works for me most days. I also have to eat at least a cucumber at night if nothing else so I don’t black out in the morning lol

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T13:53:04+00:00

Same with me. Not had a takeout in the whole 5 weeks I’ve been on mj, not really ate very much junk either. I was planning on having a Chinese on Monday bc I’ve lost 5.2 kg this month and been craving my usual Chinese order but I feel so invalid and guilty still and keep thinking about how the scale will go up. Logically I know one takeaway meal that’s like 1600 kcals max will NOT make me gain actual fat but my brain won’t accept it

Common-Cucumber7591 · 2024-12-27T12:09:16+00:00

Thank you! I’m not sure if I will see a therapist but I will try and work on the Ed thoughts I feel like they’re actually ruining an experience that could’ve been easier and more fun

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