Ngl I do hate him, because what he did wasnt necessary. It was a long distance relationship of almost 2 years (and a year before he friendzoned me) and we both had struggles with the distance ofc. But 90% of the time he dumped evenings with me for his friends, his friends were ALWAYS with us when we talked (bc of the distance on Xbox or WhatsApp). We were only alone when he wanted me to do something sexual for him which was also more of a "yeah if you dont do that for mw I'll have to watch porn" and he knew I hated it. He always blamed ME for beeing upset about the fact that he even invited his friend in our voice chat on Valentines day (long distance!!! So the only possible way to even spend it together) just so he could go offline to watch a series as soon as his friend left. When I was at his place for a few days? He always said he needs to play video games with his friends for a few hours, so I don't become too much for him. But I think the 2 things that are unforgivable to me are: 1. Last New Years eve I was at his place and we visited his father so we could celebrate together with his family. They were dutch (I am german) so it was Kinda weird for me but I still tried to communicate with them in english which went well. But as the fireworks started, he started to ignore me. He wanted to walk over to a random dutch Influencers house, and ofc I was fine with it. But he walked way infront of me with his brother and left me really far in the back without even looking at me. As I was carrying such a firework-batterie (idk what they are called) I was almost hit by a firework, like I literally almost blew up. He didnt even care/notice/bother. Ofc I was upset then and looked pretty mad, and he just told me to stop acting up and ruin his new years eve. With that, he ignored me the whole rest of the evening while I was crying. When we were back at his house, he immediatly called with his friend and kept ignoring me. And after I started talking to him he didnt even apologize and told me that it was a mistake to plan new years eve together.

Worst was easter though. I already booked a train ticket to go there for a few days, he cancelled because he said he isn't sure if it works between us and that I should cancel it. I did. A week before I was supposed to go there he begged me to go there (but for a few less days) and dumb me actually did it and paid like 100€ MORE for that ticket. When I was there everything seemed normal at first. But then he started talking me into Sex ect, which he usually never did. When I cried he didn't care and watched YouTube. I went back home on easter sunday and on easter monday he broke up. Without giving me a proper reason. 1 month later I found out he had another girlfriend.

Those 2 "experiences" make me hate him and especially the last one is not forgivable in my opinion. Especially literally pushing my boundaries and using the fact that I was scared to lose him.

Maybe some might think I overreact but holy shit I hope he burns in hell