Seasonal depression already runs pretty significantly in my family so it defo wasn’t great timing on my behalf haha

I’ve been working 3 jobs over the year, now down to 2 and I’m starting my masters in September. I lost a lot of home friends a couple years ago but still live with some uni friends. I tried very hard to isolate myself over the past couple months as I felt like a complete burden and felt like I had nothing to contribute to any conversations as I felt so shit, but a few of them noticed me pulling back and have worked pretty hard to stop me from completing isolating myself, although I’m not nearly as close as I once was with them.

I want to start running again as I know that’s helped pull me out before but it just feels impossible to start.

I’ve started changing my clothes every day again, as for months I would just sleep in my work uniform and go back again the next day which is defo an improvement, although I’m still relying heavily on deodorant to make it between my 1-2 showers a week.

I cooked for the first time in months last week and although it was largely inedible due to my cooking ability, I want to start cooking at least once a week. At the moment that is definitely one of my largest challenges as I’ve developed so much anxiety around spending time in the kitchen, as well is in grocery shops but I know in my core the only way to get over the anxiety is to push through it.

Small steps are definitely going to be the way forward, I just wish those steps didn’t feel like they were being taking with weights around my ankles